California Girl in PEI

Another school year is starting today.....

2008-09-04T10:57:00.003-03:00

YAY! Im alone again! Another year is underway here and it was pouring rain during that rush hour of getting all the kids to school in town. YAY! kiddo is starting grade 8 this year and it seems to be smooth so far. she was excited to get back and yesterday we went by to see if we could get her list early so she didnt have too much first day anxiety....we did and she is still excited...lol other then the rain this morning everything went great and its quiet now in my house...only me typing on the keyboard.

on August 30th me and hubby celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary. i really cant believe its been 6 years already...it feels odd... in some ways it feels like only yesterday we met, fell in love and i moved here to marry him. but in other ways its like we have known each other for many many years and married longer then six years. Im still as much in love with him as i was when we first started talking to each other. there certainly is something to say about that.

"love you sweetie!"

Im still waiting to hear back from Imigration Canada about my papers. its been 2 months and a day since they got my papers in their hot little hands. now they are officially over the "average" wait time for the first stage of waiting. once this goes through then i will be able to watch the status of my file. but until them im in the dark.

today im feeling like crap. have a nasty chest cold that just isnt moving and it hurts to cough and my throat is all tore up. started antibiotics yesterday, so im hoping things will start to improve by tomorrow or over the weekend. I WANT SLEEP!....and im tired of coughing.

hope things are well with you and yours. be safe and much love to you.

nice and breezy

2008-07-31T12:47:00.001-03:00

nice and breezy
Originally uploaded by caligirlpei

things went well at my moms with other family members making it in for my step dads gathering. i didnt make it out due to the cost of airfare. 3x's what it was in May when i went to vegas. mom assured me not to worry and dont feel guilty but i still do. anyway...she is handling all this well. Harolds sister was there when he passed and stayed for 5 days to help out.

other then that....just wanted to post that i added a lot (about 90) photos to my flickr site. have some pictures from the Pride Parade we went to, the redo of my daughters room, a few from our trip to the zoo, and island stuff.

hope all is well with you....hugs :)

feeling lost......

2008-07-24T10:39:00.003-03:00

not sure how im writing this right now...and exactly what to say.

my step dad of 25yrs passed way last night at home peacefully after suffering a long battle after having a major stroke a few years ago. everything kept going down hill for him after that. he was a strong, funny and active man until all that hit him. he took it very hard he couldnt work anymore and just withdrew. the past year has been really hard for my mom taking care of him. his breathing was always the big problem. we knew this day was coming but it always hurts when they leave us. I know now he is in a better place now.

i worry about my mom now and how she is going to deal with all this. she is strong...or at least comes off strong but i know how she is deep down....and im so sad for her right now. she is so tired ...the past week has been the hardest for her having had harold on hospice care in their bedroom. I cant imagine and dont know if i could do it myself when and if that time ever comes.

the littlest one in all this....ashley. 5 yrs old and adores Harold and helped care for him as best she could. my mom told me she is lost right now and is asking where he is. she wasnt home when all this went down yesterday and when she got home he was gone. im in tears thinking about how she must feel loosing her buddy who listened to her and loved to have her help do things.

i know this was expected but i cant stop feeling sad and crying. THIS SUCKS! i just cant get accept death. never have....and i dont think i ever well. i hate going to funerals and wakes. i have only been to a few of them only due to the fact they were family. other then that...i avoid them just because i cant deal with death.

....love you Harold.

Im sure looking forward to winter......

2008-07-18T19:58:00.004-03:00

Well well, this month has been one big roller coaster at our house and for the family.

the beginning of the month had me down and out with all the teeth issues and drug withdrawls. as far as that is going my mouth now is 90% feeling better and no more withdrawl symptoms from all the codine i was taking.

kiddo went to camp again this year and had a great time. this year she was in the "teen" camp and they did lots of fun activies....but she didnt do some of them cuz she had a big problem with the bugs/mosquitos (she has a major phobia). she came back all stinky and needing a shower so i know she had fun...lol

we dropped her off at camp that saturday morning....we did a bit of running around Charlottetown with his mom. we went to a strawberry social event and had some great strawberry shortcake. we took her to do her grocery shopping.

after dropping off his mom we went to lunch on our own then waited for the Pride Parade that was scheduled in town for that day. IT WAS GREAT! we had a fun time at the parade and then went to the park for the rally and just hung out with a great bunch of people in the GLTB community.

during the week kiddo was at camp we re-did her bedroom. OMG, we through out over 100lbs of trash from her room and other stuff we had around. No lie, they weigh your car when you into waste management and then when you come out. INSANE. Oh, and the dust! my allergies were so bad all this week from the cleaning out of things the benedryl wasnt even helping. at the end of everyday we were so tired from cleaning, taking apart furniture and sorting junk.

got her a new bed, desk for homework and crafts (we dont allow her a computer in her room), new book case, two large rolling organizer draweres and a few new posters she had been talking about. we finished it the day before she was due home....i think it looks great and i wish it was my room (if i was a teenager).

during this week my mom informs me that my stepdad is in the hospital again. and they will know more as the week goes on if he is going to have to go into hospice care or not this time.

on the morning of pick up day for kiddo we get a call from hubbys oldest sister telling us that his mom was in the hospital over night. from what she was told, his mom who two months ago had a stroke...had gotten up during the night and while in the bathroom she passed out and fell to the ground. she was there for two hours until she was able to drag herself to the phone and call 911. the senior home didnt call any of the family. the only way any of us found out was his mom calling one of sister to come pick her up from the hospital.

doctor now informed us that she really shouldnt be alone for a minimum of three days...thats taken care of with her staying at one of hubbys sisters homes. then after that she is going to stay with one of her grandkids house until next thursday then with us for the following weekend.

things have already been decided she cant live alone anymore unfortunatly so hubbys older sister was planning on a move end of next month anyway so they are going to get a bigger place and have her live with them. my mother in law was ok with it and understands her situation which is a great deal of pressure off all of us since she agrees.

Kiddo LOVE LOVE LOVED her room. she cant stop saying how much she loves it. im so happy she does because we put so much work into getting things cleaned, old stuff sold, new stuff bought and put togetther.

called my mom tonight to find out she was in the middle of making calls to all the family (hadnt gotten to me yet) that my step dad isnt doing great and IS going to be going into hospice care and only given a month. didnt talk to my mom long since she was busy but will find out more tomorrow and talk to her then.

we were supposed to have a yard sale tomorrow but as our luck has it....we are due for lots of rain overnight into tomorrow and ending late afternoon. yeahhhhhhhh. so...we try again next weekend even if his mom is here. im planning on her not doing a darn thing when she is here and my foot is down on that. but we have to do this yard sale...i have so much stuff now to get rid of since cleaning everything out. oh well....now we have a nice relaxing weekend instead.

im so tired. physically and emotionally. hope all is well with you this mid summers day. Oh, and if I hadnt mentioned it yet....I cant stand summer! the humidity and the summer bugs are driving me nuts.

hugs

Anyone still there?.....

2008-07-03T16:34:00.002-03:00

for anyone still checking in on this darn thing, Im still here alive and breathing. It has been a hell of a month for me.

last I spoke i was not in the best of moods due to several things going on. one of which as been my dental problems that have been bothering me since i got back from my vacation the beginning of May.

long story a little shortened.....one root canal....5 fillings...2 of which were very deep and worse then having root canals. one of the fills ended up inflaming the root and the only option was to pull it since it was a tooth that was so built up it wasnt worth saving. then....while that was done an infection was brewing along where the other fillings were done causing pain from my ear, down the side of my face to my neck. got antibiotics for that. THEN....the extracted tooth area decided to become a "dry socket" and had to have this gross soaked piece of gauze packed into it and pain flared up again in that area. oh...and on top of all that...im currently going through codeine withdrawal from all the Tylenol #2's i have been taking....major headache and cold sweats.

it has not been a fun 4 weeks for me and havent been to work either due to it. just not in the mood for anything or anyone. sucks really. there is so much house work that isnt getting done and its driving me nuts.

today....im feeling about a 5 out of 10, which is pretty darn good. havent felt this good in weeks.

after Canada Day (which we didnt do anything this year) I decided to get my butt in gear and turn in my citizenship papers. Watching those going through their ceremony made me wish it was me standing there taking the oath.

so...I have had the application filled out since April. all i had to get done was take the 2 pictures they need and pay the fees. THAT WAS DONE TODAY!

im putting the papers in the mail tomorrow....July 4th! kinda symbolic IMO ...starting my Canadian citizenship process on independence day. im very excited that this is now in the works and around this time next year I hope to be a Canadian Citizen.

Depression...the other white meat.

2008-06-15T10:19:00.002-03:00

Ever been so upset about stuff you cant even cry? thats how i have been now for the past week or so. sure things are good on the outside and you would never know...but inside is a whole other story right now.

anyway....yeah...hope things are going well for you. HUGS

Another year older and a little more....wiser?

2008-05-30T10:01:00.003-03:00

*singing*.....Today is my birthday....and im 41!

Yep, I said it.....I'm 41 years old today. im officially IN my forties now.

OH MY GOD!.....IM IN MY 40'S NOW! IM SO OLD! ARRGGGHHHHHH

some days i sure feel that way. but the other day when i went to the bank i swear i was the youngest person there as a customer. it was senior check day and i bet i was the youngest there by easily 20 years or more. it was kinda weird...one way i felt really young ...but then in for one moment i was feeling as old as everyone around me. it was strange.

anyway....its a bright sunny day here with a high of 15c and im actually in a great mood. i cancelled my dentist appointment yesterday so i didnt have to deal with any pain today. next appointment is on june 12th...i will stress out then.

hugs to you ...have a great day and even better weekend.

Hello there......

2008-05-21T15:42:00.002-03:00

Just a quick note....im still alive and had a great time in vegas. i posted a few pics on my flickr site (link to the right).

as soon as i got home one of teeth decided since my vacation was over to start paining me to the point of sleepless nights. went to the dentist one week to the day of returning home. took him 6 tries to numb the tooth. started a root canal on it and i go back again this friday to finish it along with a couple other things. *sigh*

other then that and my wheat allergy stuff....im doing great! more on all this stuff another day.

hope you are doing well. i (sometimes) miss doing my blog...but i think i have come to that road where im just so so on it and not sure about the daily/weekly/ bi-weekly update. we shall see.

hugs to you my blogger friend. i will be back soon

A little bit of this and that.....

2008-04-30T09:36:00.002-03:00

Unbelievable....two days before my trip i get a cold. GRRRRRRRR. this is not going to slow me down or ruin my fun. so there!

all of my hives/rash is gone. just my skin now on my upper arms is damaged from all of it. i have to keep lotion on them constantly (3-4 times a day) or they get so dry and cracked.

went to the doctors a week ago monday and we did more blood work to check now if i have an allergy to gluten. will get that back sometime next week. so far as long as i stay away from wheat im doing good. i havent tried an different variations of wheat yet...that will happen when i return from my trip. dont want to ruin something that working for now.

lets see, what else? nothing much else really...just been counting down for my trip which is tommorrow. WOOHOO!

hope you are doing well. and have a great weekend. i know i will. :)

Runs screaming in the house......

2008-04-24T10:09:00.002-03:00

VEGAS IS IN ONE WEEK!!!!!!! i feel like a child on christmas eve and cant stop thinking and talking about my upcoming trip.

anyway...just an update on my allergy stuff. saw the doctor this past monday and with all the foods i have added and only reacting to "wheat"...the symptoms i didnt even realize i was having before the big breakout of hives have lessened or have gone away (ie: intestinal gas, bloating, stomach problems, even my arthritis flare up with my knee). Yes, even my knee pain is so much better since i eliminated wheat from my diet.

with that all being told, the doctor THINKS i might have a gluten allergy which is so much more then just wheat. so off to the lab i went again for another vile of blood to be tested. this test wont be back for at least two weeks so until then im just doing what im doing now - staying away from wheat until i see him then.

i cant tell you how hard it is to not think about having bread at meals and how many things have wheat ingredients in them. amazing what you dont know until you read the labels on product.

hope all is well with you.

SEVEN MORE SLEEPS UNTIL IM FLYING HIGH TO VEGAS!!!! wohoo!

One day at a time.....

2008-04-18T16:38:00.002-03:00

It seems like I have been dealing with this allergy thing now for 2 months or more. its slow going and im just bored with everything and just want "normal" back.

I have added in lots of foods: beef, eggs, mayo, pork, corn, potatoes, cheese, tomatoes, ketchup, butter, tuna, sour cream, avocado, lettuce, cucumber, garlic salt, green onion, celantro, jalapenos to my initial start foods: chicken, rice, grapes, sugar, herbal tea.

have had a couple set backs on: wheat, bananas and mcdonald vanilla milk shake.

when i get back from vacation im going to go more into detail with the wheat thing. so for now im off everything that has any form of wheat in it. sucks...but do able.

im still planning on adding before vacation: cantelope, peanut butter, chocolate, apple juice, orange juice, jarred salsa, mustard, onion, green beans, mushrooms, shrimp.

my skin is so damaged from all of the hives and is extremly dry and cant seem to keep lotion on it enough. using Eucerin extreme dry skin lotion....still putting ice on the "hot" areas when they want to itch.

so thats what is going on with all that. now for me to get excited over vacation!!!......

1 week....6 days until im in Vegas! im so excited i could burst. Today i decided im going to see a show the night im there alone before my mom and sister arrive the next day. Im going to go see Wayne Brady at the Venetian. again...im so excited.....row E center section aisle seat. weehoo.

I have one work shift next week...on thursday so when that is done i will be one week away. Report cards come home tuesday...which im sure will be good like they have been so far this year for kiddo. the next week will be a bit more busier which is fine with me. work im sure on tuesday night (since im only available monday or tuesday that week and monday crew is a usual one) and wednesday will be crazy....right after school we have parent teacher meetings. right after that squeeze in dinner before kiddo has her Girl Guide Pathfinders meeting. while she is at her meeting im going to be packing (if im not already packed...lol). and then bed....yeah right, if i could sleep...lol.

hope all is well with you....big hugs

It's been a while.....

2008-04-05T11:30:00.002-03:00

I just havent been in the mood to blog since last time. that same week I started to have a patch of hives and it grew from there. after a week of this patch i went to the doctors, he put me on an antihistamine but that didnt help and the hives continued to build and spread. back to the doctor again. he did blood work, nothing came back out of the normal and that is when things got more depressing for me.

we now feel its some kind of food allergy of some kind. so with that off i was on a journey of boring bland and only a hand full of foods until the hives went away. how long? took almost 2 weeks for me to feel better. in that time i only ate: baked chicken, plain rice, grapes, bananas, plain rice cakes, water and herbal tea with sugar. nothing else. YUM. im so sick of all this.

this past thursday was the first day i finally felt better and didnt have a night of itching so I got to add a "food type" so I chose wheat. had wheat toast for breakfast with chicken, lunch the same and at the science fair i had a plain wheat bagel. nothing more that day. later that night i was breaking out again and yesterday was the pits. so....so far im effected by wheat.

i now have to go back to square one again so the hives that reappeared are gone and im not itching again. YAY! today is day two of chicken and rice again and im hoping tomorrow i can add another item. im going to try EGGS.

im so sick of this stuff. im really deep into my depression again and just dont want to do anything. doctor has me off work until the end of next week and im not sure what im going to do after that. i just cant handle anything right now and im seem so scatter brained as well.

on top of all this im now worried about what im going to do on my vacation coming up on May 1st. my only thought was to just go nuts and blow this all. im just sick of it and miserable with itching. im so upset that im on the edge of tears most of my days...if its not that im just turned off emotionally all together.

hubby feels so bad that he cant do anything to help me. he had helped me some, putting stuff on my back and being there for me to talk this all out even though its always the same thing.. me whining about how uncomfortable i am and how depressing things have gotten. I have also spent many night sleeping (trying actually) out in the living room on the recliner so i dont keep hubby awake with all my itching and scratching.

so there you have it. that has been my past month. exciting and i dont wish this on anyone. its the pits.

guess what???.....

2008-03-12T13:48:00.002-03:00

IM GOING TO VEGAS!!! I am so excited I can burst!

The plan was initally a thought to suprise my mom in Vegas Easter weekend when she is planning to be there. But, I couldnt get any cheap flight with such short notice, the fact its Easter weekend and also in the middle of March Break holiday.

so the idea was tossed around between me and hubby that I see what I could find for sometime in May around my birthday to fly back to the West coast and spend time with my mom.

I check some flights out and found a really good deal ($512 round trip) for Memorial Weekend. I called my mom and asked her what she was doing that weekend and if she had anymore comp rooms in vegas she could use.

She informed me that she already had a room booked in May but was over the Cino De Mayo weekend. I told her my plan of what I wanted to do and she was excited to hear I was wanting to do this. So, I went to check out the other dates and got the same price but had to add a day at the beginning of my trip which is ok.

Im all booked and ready to go and hang out with my mom for a weekend. I havent seen her in three years. I think one of my sisters is going to join us also....wohoo....girls weekend out!

I fly into Vegas at around 11:30am on thursday May 1st. my mom wont be there until friday early evening so i had to book a room for myself for the one night. I have just over 24 hours to explore the strip by myself. at first thought i was a bit nervous about it ...but now im so ready for this exprience to just be by myself there and just do what i want without worrying about anyone else (not that i dont like that). I get 5 whole days in vegas! early in on thursday and dont leave until 1130pm on monday night.

Dont get me wrong now....Im a worry wart about my family at home alone without me. kiddo still has to get to school. so that means she will be walking or biking those 4 days of school im not there. have to make sure they have enought prepared food for them for dinners. the hard part for me is the fact hubby doesnt drive so they will be home the whole time not going anywhere unless they take a cab or get a ride from someone. hubby is planning to take those days off himself to be home for kiddo when she gets home from school and its also easier with no ride to and from work.

This cant get here quick enough for me now. its all im have been thinking about for the last 24hours and im driving hubby crazy with my talk about it. lol

IM GOING TO VEGAS!!! LALALALALALALALALALA

13 years ago today.....

2008-03-10T12:52:00.003-03:00

......I was in labor with my kiddo. 13 years ago today I was blessed with a beautiful baby girl that is turning into a very beautiful young woman. (that of course comes with the "teen" years.) even though she drives me nuts on a daily basis, I dont know what I would do without her. she is my life and i would be lost if she wasnt there. I love you C.

Happy Birthday to my baby girl.

Big o'l Meme....

2008-03-09T10:19:00.004-03:00

normally I dont do the Meme thing... i actually liked this one even though its a little long. this is open to anyone else who wants to play along, just let me know you are doing it. thank you Rositta for sharing this with me. :)

"OK so this is the deal, this is a really easy meme with minimal typing from you. Simply copy and paste the list below into your blog and bold the things you have done in your lifetime and that is it. There's no need to explain any of your answers and it'll not take you very long so go on.... give it a go."

HAVE YOU EVER?
01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped.
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten my own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than I could afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as I possibly could
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking.
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about my life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for my computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk.
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip.
48. Gone rock climbing.
49. Taken a midnight walk on the beach.
50. Gone sky diving.
51. Visited Ireland.
52. Been heartbroken longer then I was actually in love with the person.
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them.
54. Visited Japan.
55. Milked a cow.
56. Alphabetized my CDs.
57. Pretended to be a superhero.
58. Sung karaoke.
59. Lounged around in bed all day.
60. Posed nude in front of strangers.
61. Gone scuba diving.
62. Kissed in the rain.
63. Played in the mud.
64. Played in the rain.
65. Gone to a drive-in theater.
66. Visited the Great Wall of China.
67. Started a business.
68. Fallen in love with someone and not had my heart broken.
69. Toured ancient sites.
70. Taken a martial arts class.
71. Played D&D for more than six hours straight.
72. Gotten married.
73. Been in a movie.
74. Crashed a party.
75. Gotten divorced.
76. Gone without food for 5 days.
77. Made cookies from scratch.
78. Won first prize in a costume contest.
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice.
80. Gotten a tattoo.
81. Rafted the Snake River.
82. Been on a television news program.
83. Received flowers for no reason.
84. Performed on stage.
85. Been to Las Vegas.
86. Recorded music.
87. Eaten shark.
88. Had a one-night stand.
89. Gone to Thailand.
90. Bought a house.
91. Been in a combat zone.
92. Buried one of my parents.
93. Been on a cruise ship.
94. Spoken more than one language fluently.
95. Performed in Rocky Horror Picture Show.
96. Raised children.
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour.
98. Created and named my own constellation of stars.
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country.
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over.
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge.
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when I knew someone was looking.
103. Had plastic surgery.
104. Survived an illness that I shouldn't have survived.
105. Written articles for a large publication.
106. Lost over 100 pounds.
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback.
108. Piloted an airplane.
109. Petted a stingray.
110. Broken someone's heart.
111. Helped an animal give birth.
112. Won money on a T.V. game show.
113. Broken a bone.
114. Gone on an African photo safari.
115. Had a body part of mine below the neck pierced.
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun or pistol.
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild.
118. Ridden a horse.
119. Had major surgery.
120. Had a snake as a pet.
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon.
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours.
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states.
124. Visited all 7 continents.
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days.
126. Eaten kangaroo.
127. Eaten sushi.
128. Had my picture in the newspaper.
129. Changed someone's mind about something I care deeply about.
130. Gone back to school.
131. Para sailed.
132. Petted a cockroach.
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes.
134. Read The Iliad.
135. Selected one "important" author who I missed in school, and read.
136. Killed and prepared and animal for eating.
137. Skipped all my school reunions.
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language.
139. Been elected to public office.
140. Written my own computer language.
141. Thought to myself that I'm living my dream.
142. Had to put someone I love into hospice care.
143. Built my own PC from parts.
144. Sold my own artwork to someone who didn't know me.
145. Had a booth at a street fair.
146: Dyed my hair.
147: Been a DJ.
148: Shaved my head.
149: Caused a car accident.
150: Saved someone's life.

there you go. whewwwwwww . hope you are having a nice weekend and learned something new about me today. HUGS!

Just so darn proud I could burst!...

2008-03-07T07:30:00.003-04:00

Im so proud of my kiddo! She had her science fair yesterday and was one of eight kids plus the top three at her school chosen to go to the Provincial science fair next month. IM SUCH A PROUD MOTHER HEN!!

It's a sad day....

2008-03-04T10:35:00.003-04:00

Last night we found out our neighbor passed away. Sad thing is it was a week and a half ago on a friday and we didnt even know. last time we spoke with here was monday prior to her passing. we were locked out of our house waiting for the property managment to come with a new key...kiddo had to use the bathroom so I told her to go over to our neighbors house and see if she was home. she was and let her in to do her business. kiddo was there a little bit...chatting with her and was told that she wasnt feeling well. kiddo told her that if she needed anything to call us. Cis was an older lady...not sure exactly how old she was...my guess is 80'ish.

we only found out last night cuz we noticed people moving stuff out of her house, which is split into 2 apartments. she had the lower level. i ask kiddo to go over and check on her to see if she was ok. but as she was walking over i noticed the guys bringing out some bags of stuff and it clicked.,....she died. kiddo came back after the men told her she passed but nothing else. I wanted to know more ....like when this happened and when the service was. hubby went over to talk to the men and they said it was a week ago last friday after going into the hospital the tuesday just before that. i realized that we were going to go and check on her that tuesday (after talking to her monday and her saying she wasnt feeling well) but forgot. now i feel horrible. since we just found out...we missed the service and wake for her...which i hate going to those things but for her i would have make that exception.

she was such a nice lady and always did something extra special for the kids that lived next to her for halloween, christmas, etc. im really going to miss her. again...all i can say about her is how nice she was and how much she enjoyed talking to us when we drove into our driveway when she was sunning herself on warm days.

the other sad thing about all this....she was the one neighbor we actually talk to. so sad.

in other news.....we didnt get chosen for Test the Nation. *sad face*. oh well....im disappointed we didnt neither of us made it. from what I was told...im on a stand by list if someone doesnt accept or cant make the taping. but thats my chance. hubby doesnt even have that. we well have to just keep watching the website to see if we fit into any other catagories for future show.

so...how's your day?
hugs...I need hugs today.

Time keeps ticking....

2008-02-28T08:02:00.003-04:00

I started walking for exercise this week. decided to take my doctors crazy advice that walking more would help my knee. I even joined the walking club at our wellness center, they have a nice walking track around the arena. I have gone everyday this week so far... 3km monday morning and then went back with hubby that night and did 3 more. im sore but i know its cuz i dont walk this much normally. and i do know that im sore like this after working also because i dont do anything between my shifts. tuesdays and yesterday i raised my walk to 4km each time and im sticking to that until next week when i move it to 5km. other then being a little sore i feel ok. we shall see how it goes.

still no news on about Test the Nation. all we know is that they were going to try and have the teams together this week. so im sure if we made it on we should know anytime now. im so impatient. the wait is killing me! its hard to keep my fingers crossed 24/7, lol.

going to have a fun weekend....kiddo is doing the sleep over thing with her Girl Guide troup friday night so after dropping her off we are going out to dinner and to play trivia. planning to kick some butt! then on saturday its girls night. going over to Island News place for a Passion party. should be lots of fun....im excited to just hanging out with the girls. dont know anyone else but her thats going to be there (i think)...a little nervous about that...but im sure this will be the time to meet some new friends. :)

have a great day today....im off to take them to work and school...then off to go walking.
hugs

A nice sunny Friday....

2008-02-22T09:42:00.004-04:00

just a small ramble on this lovely cold sunny friday.....

If only my knee was my friend. I was thinking that my knee was feeling better but after falling on it it has been slow going and just kept doing the medicine as i was doing. I worked last night, first time since falling on it and half way through my shift i knew it was going to be a long night trying to sleep. this morning i uped my meds on my knee now to 40 drops. we shall see how this goes....i work again tonight. but i have to do this dose for at least a week before i know this is the does i need.

I want to talk more about what i spoke about 2 posts back but i cant right now. im so excited is all im going to say. lots happened since that post and im really excited to hear some news. but nothing yet. will let you know when i hear if its a go or not. FINGERS CROSSED for both me AND hubby!!!!!!

Big Brother .....omg...all i have to say about these people is....where the "F" did they get these insane/trashy people????? the tv show itself shows so little of what is really going on in that house. im shocked every morning when i check out a board i follow. the videos and pics are shocking.

I love Cali, but I hate Blogspot

2008-02-14T18:43:00.003-04:00

This is Machiabelly, or Mr. Cali, if you prefer. I was going to log in under my name and make a nice post as a surprise for Cali...but I still don't have a Google account, then I don't have a hotmail account, then I swore a little bit, then I got distracted by something shiny, then I asked Cali if I could just sign in under her name...and here we are.

As Cali said, we tend to think of every day as Valentines. I know a lot of people say that...but we really do try to live it. We never part without saying I love you, and we talk out any issues before going to bed...small things, but it has got us over 5 happy years.

So, here is my note to you my love. Thank you for making me laugh. Thank you for thinking I am funny enough to laugh at (Even with my clothes on). Thank you for cuddling. Thank you for being a fan of the same crappy TV shows I am. Thank you for wanting to be touching me in some way while you sleep. Thank you for bringing kidlet into my life, and letting me be a dad. Thank you for coming into my life and letting me be a husband. Thank you for loving me and for being you.

I love you Cali Girl. Happy everyday sweety.

Day of (EXTRA) Love.....

2008-02-14T11:27:00.002-04:00

Im one of those people that believes everyday should be Valentines day if you are in a relationship. so to me, today is just another day...but with a little more love to share. me and hubby both decided that its just another day and arent exchanging gifts. little notes of love and a few more hugs added to the day is what it will be. we got kiddo a little something though.... she loves Webkinz, so we got her the Love Frog for V'day to add to her collection with some chocolates. she has named him Cupid since its Valentines day and he does have hearts all over him. it was a toss up between that and Aphrodite (if the frog was a girl). lol

everything here is icy again. the roads themselves arent too bad but the drive way is horrible. we got out this morning being very very careful. school was delayed by one hour. when i got home from taking kiddo to school, i got out of the car and down i went. *sigh* yep...i slipped. i half caught myself but landed on my friggin bad knee (of course). now my knee is all jacked up and throbbing with pain. im scheduled to work tonight but i called out after killing my knee since its not feeling so great. it hurts even while im sitting here. havent looked at it again since after falling. it looked like it was bruising up too.

anyway...thats my day so far.

oh....i have to say. not sure if i should or not but i will give a bit of info now. those that are Canadian....have you watched CBC Test the Nation? well....after watching the last show and going to the website to see the results they had. I checked (like it did after the show before this one) to see what groups of people they are looking for to be on the show. the first time we looked after the first show we (me and hubby) didnt fit into any catagory. but this time we both fit into different catagories. he fit into "past reach for the contestent" and i fit into "american living in Canada". so we both sent an email of our interest in being on the show. I got a reply back with a questionaire to fill out. he did not. so i filled out the form and sent it back with a photo of me they also wanted...now the waiting game begins. the show that this will be for is on sunday March 30th. im sure I will know what is going on within the next few weeks since i would have to plan a flight to Toronto that weekend.

have a great day today.....much love to you and hugs

Hello stranger friend....

2008-02-12T12:49:00.000-04:00

Not much going on here. I started some new meds for my knee two weeks ago (Pennsaid) and im still trying to figure out the dosage still to what will work for me. so far its kinda helping but not to the fullest. im sure it will take me a few for weeks until i get it right.

the weather here has been crazy this winter so far. we have had NINE snow days (no school) since the beginning of december. we have had more snow this winter then we have had in two winters. problem though...the temps have been going back and forth so we have had our share of freezing rain also which totally sucks.

even with the writer strike (which is offically over now!!! wohoo) the tv programs we have watching have been good. we love the reality tv shows (yeah we are freaks!). the cheesier the better. Big Brother starts tonight...that takes care of 3 nights of tv during the week. we also are watching Paradise Hotel2...now thats cheesy and trashy all at once. im happy that Jericho is coming back...we enjoyed that show when it was on last season. American Gladiator is good. to be honest I really only watch it cuz of one of the gladiators..... for some strange reason I have this thing for Wolf. so sexy. not normally into the "muscle men" but i think it has something to do with the bad boy thing and his cute smile when he isnt pretending to be mean.

hope all is well with you. im still posting a picture a day of the weather here on my Flickr account.

hugs :)

Covered in ice.....

2008-01-30T12:01:00.001-04:00

Driveway iced over with fallen branches
Originally uploaded by caligirlpei

This is day three for the kids not being in school due to weather. but the worst happened monday night going into yesterday. we had a wicked ice storm hit us and it made a huge mess all around town. hubby come home early monday when the snow changed over to ice...my 5 minute drive turned into 15 minute drive and a few more grey hairs. he was out tuesday due to several power poles snapped and fell along the road his work is on. lots of people here are without power, but we are fine were we are at.

I moved our car up as close to the house as i could because i was worried about the trees that hang over the driveway. Im sure glad i moved it. branches fell during the night right where the car would have been. we were very lucky to have no damage to the car or house.

I took lots of pictures yesterday and today of our yard. still a mess. i managed to move a few of the main branches that were on the driveway so i could move the car in and out. had to wait until late in the day tuesday to do this because the branches were stuck to the ground in a layer of ice ontop of the ice that were already on them.

to see all the pictures (i think there are 3 pages of them) just click on the Flickr link to the right.

hope all is well with you and your family. :)
HUGS

My thoughts as a list....

2008-01-14T10:51:00.000-04:00

1. my chronic knee pain is back with vengence. meds not helping much.
2. getting a nor-easter this afternoon into overnight.
3. not in the mood for anything (see #1).
4. looking forward to this weekend....trivia friday night, bingo saturday night.
5. mother in law coming this weekend.
6. need a haircut.
7. depression creeping back in (see #1 again).
8. need to go to dentist regarding two teeth that have cracked or lost fillings.
9. so fortunate to have such a great man in my life to keep me going.
10. 14 days and still taking one pic a day outside my house and posting it on flickr account (see link on the right).
11. hoping we get so much snow tonight i dont have to work tomorrow night (see #1).
12. this post sucks.
13. going to play games on pogo.com until i have to pick up kiddo from school.
14. HUGS to you.

Watch me pull a rabbit from my hat.......

2008-01-05T11:13:00.000-04:00

First off I have to say......

I feel so sad for Britney. She truly needs mental help before she can go on with her life. too much too young and nobody around her to tell her NO. Just sad. hope she can get the help she really needs before the worst happens and the kids really wont have a mother to help raise them.

so....anyway....other then that....not much else going on here. im finally going to take down my christmas stuff today, January 5th. I hate putting it all away and then when its all out of the livingroom it looks so empty and bare.

my body aches today after working last night. i swear i have the body of someone 20 years older. i just ache...between my knee being sore and just all my back and other muscles aching I cringe when i have to stand up and stretch. we were so busy at work last night for the first half of my shift...it was non stop or at least it seemed. I was the lucky one to be mostly putting stuff down into fryers so by the time i got home i was smelling just gross. nothing like being covered in grease (or at least it feels that way).

the weather here is now giving us a break for at least a few days. the funny thing is we are going to be temps over freezing starting tomorrow and maybe up as high as 10c. all my pretty white snow is going to melt. i dont mind having the snow as long as i can keep up with it and not break my back.

lets see...what else? I was just telling another blogger friend (Andrea) about how rambling posts are good sometimes. well....im feeling a little wrong about that right now...lol i keep staring out the window watching the dog across the street bark at something and then think about having to start the christmas clean up chore. *sigh*

if i think of anything else...i will be back. oh yes....you can count on that. i will be back. :p~

big hugs to you and hope you have a wonderful weekend.

Happy 2008!!!.....

2008-01-02T12:12:00.001-04:00

Hope you had a nice new years eve. we stayed home like we always so and watch tv. i love to flip the channels back and forth between all the new years stuff.

no resolution for me. i havent made one in 8 years and i kinda like it that way. one less thing to stress me out.

we are in the middle of another storm. they said we are to get anywhere from 15-30cm of snow with this one. and high winds making for some bad conditions outside. started around 3am this morning. we were hoping for hubbys work to be closed today....he called at 7am to check the storm line and said it was delayed until 10am with another announcement at 9am. so we go back to bed and call then. WOHOO!! he has a snow day! so today we are having yet another lazy slack ass day.

yesterday was beautiful outside...the sun was shining and no wind. kiddo was outside playing in the snow for bit with her friend. but the snow was too fluffy to make a snowman.

there is one thing im starting to do this year. something i wanted to do last year but didnt want to start it mid year. everyday im going to take a picture outside my frontdoor or window then post it on my flickr account (click on the link to the right). im going to post a picture a day for the year 2008. i know some days there isnt going to be much a chance. but with only having 2 pictures so far taken there is such a difference in the days.

have a great day today...
hugs

OH MY GOSH!!.....(kinda long)

2007-12-29T20:27:00.001-04:00

Chalked up another "canadian" winter experience tonight. i got the car stuck in snow.

hubby needed some new headphones for when he is on the computer in the livingroom (something we have needed for months now) and i suggested we go out and get them tonight.

we had had quite a bit of heavy snow this afternoon and we werent plowed out yet but it didnt look too bad and neither did the roll at the end of the driveway since the street plows havent been by either. so we both decided to go and get out of the house for bit to buy these headphones.

well....let me tell you.....

after shovelling a path out the frontdoor and around to both sides of the car. then taking off the snow that had covered the car we got in and thought it well be ok.

as we rolled down the driveway i thought the layer was thicker then i thought (at least a foot minimum deep). as we got closer to the roll at the end hubby suggested we take it on fast. i wasnt so sure of that only cuz our car is low to the ground (not like the van we had) and i didnt want to take out our front end if the roll was hard with packed snow and ice chunks.

so i decided to do it at a half way decent speed i thought would get us through it. I WAS WRONG! OMG, we got stuck at the end of our driveway! right at the dip part at the end going into the street. i tried and tried several times to see if i could roll the car back and forth to get out of it but all i was doing was spinning my tires. it was hopeless.....the car was stuck.

out i went to get the shovel by the front door of the house. i start to shovel out the front tires and under the front of the car as much as i could...and put the shovel in the car with us. i get in and try to go again...back and forth we went...i almost thought i was going to have to give up and get out again to shovel some more...i thought i got all out from around the tires.

i got the car to back up some and finally got it to go forward just about over the mess i still had under the car and gosh darn it here come two cars down the street with another coming from the other direction. "crap!" thats all i could think knowing i was almost out of the mess i got us into. so we wait for them to pass and then give it another try. we went back and forth again and again...even moving our bodies forward like it was going to help even the littlest bit...lol

WE FINIALLY GOT OUT!!!! WOHOO! oh my gosh i have never had that experience before in my life. we just laughed as we drove down the street and wondered about driving back in. lol

we get to destination #1 and they dont have any headphones. then we decided to hit another place just next to it but on the other end of the parking lot. so we drive over there and i let hubby out at the door so he doesnt have to walk through the mess and i was to go and park the car and meet him inside.

well.......let me tell you........

i thought doing the right thing was to go around the existing car that were there to turn the car around so we were facing the way we came. all is good and well the guy in the spot i want is leaving and i will pull into that spot and go in. hmmm? i start to make my turn around the parked cars and my cars tires start to spin and im not moving. "oh crap! im stuck again" so i do the reverse the car and back up a bit and then go forward stuff again. but no, i was moving inches each time. along comes this other car....around me he goes and into the spot i was almost in. MOTHER F'R! so i keep trying to get myself moving and into the plowed part of the lot...finally...i did. i thought i was going to burst with frustration after all that. i was sweating and everything.

i parked the car finally and went in. got his headphones and back on the road we went to get home. we we reached our driveway we didnt stop....i made sure i was going pretty good up the drive and i must say i wasnt but a couple inches off from the tracks i had layed when we left.

so....there is it. the first time i have ever had my car get stuck in snow. i have lived here 6 winters now and this is it. lol. i can now say that we both laughed after it was all said and done but during that time....i didnt like it so much. next time we arent going out until the driveway is plowed or i go and at least shovel out the roll at the end.

lesson learned. :)

Feeling like a little kid.....

2007-12-29T13:59:00.000-04:00

oh the excitement that goes through me when its snowing outside! IT'S SNOWING!!!! i love it when its snowing outside and I dont have to go anywhere. I can just sit here and watch it out my bedroom window. so pretty. *sigh*

A new guilty pleasure.....

2007-12-26T10:36:00.001-04:00

OMG!!! last night there wasnt much on for tv so we watched a bunch of mish-mash. one show we ended up watching was Crowned-the mother of all pagents. what a reality show pile of delicious mess. MEOW! we have now added it to our must watch shows list strictly on the cheese factor. and who doesnt love a bit of cheese?

Merry Christmas...

2007-12-25T17:12:00.001-04:00

Hope you had a wonderful christmas day. we did here. no snow for us...but the only time i stepped foot out of the house was to put trash out into the can.

me and hubby decided to cut back on christmas this year since money was really tight. funny how I though the kiddo would be disappointed in only getting a few things this year. she wasnt! we loved the things we got her and all is good. do you think she will notice it again next year if we cut back yet again? lol

I got a nice pair of slippers that i wanted from hubby...they are soooooo comfy and warm. and kiddo got me 2 movies....Hairspray and the Corpes Bride.

after watching hairspray a month ago...which i went in reluctanly because im from the old school movie and loved that one a lot, i wasnt sure i would like the new one. i was wrong.....i totally loved it since it was based on the play not the original movie. im glad i got this movie to watch over and over again. GOOD MORNING BALTIMORE! the other movie...corpes bride is one of my all time favs...i can watch that one over and over again. can you tell i like movies with lots of music in them?

me and kiddo got hubby a couple books. he loves to read the Uncle John Bathroom Readers so we added to his collection by getting him two of the newest ones: National parks and one that is Trivia. i have to mention i love reading these books also. they are so fun to read and you actually can learn a lot of neat stuff from them.

cant think right now ....might be because while im typing this we have Paula Dean on foodnetwork on and its all about chocolate. yummm. she is so fun to watch...i just love her accent.

I have to say i was surprised by the number of comments that i had on my last post. i really truly didnt think anyone stopped by there anymore. im so thankful AND greatful. i guess those that stopped by do the same thing i do ....i always check into all my blogs even if they havent typed in ages just to see if they happen to come back to life. it does happen...sometimes.

we have another day here of doing nothing. yep, nothing! no school or work tomorrow for us and most things here in town are closed for boxing day. WEEHOO!...im sleeping in again.

have a great rest of your day and big hugs to you.

Yes, I still believe in Santa.....

2007-12-22T09:41:00.000-04:00

Yep....its me! Im still alive and kicking. been some time since I had last posted and thought I would stop in and see what was shaken. not sure if anyone still stops by here or not so lets see what happens.

hope all has been well with you. things here have been a bit yuck the past month. I had the worst flu hit me a few weeks back that lasted almost 2 weeks. hubby is just now getting over pneumonia (I got very little to no sleep during that due to his coughing). so that past few days have been nice being able to have a full nights sleep.

other then that....winter started right on December 1st here. we've had 2 storms hit us so far this month and have had 2 snow days out of school already. the weather for christmas though isnt looking like its going to be a white one for us. the temps are going up and we are having rain christmas eve (booo!).

im still working a day or two a week at the grocery store. im waiting to find out if im in the pools for the temp jobs starting in january at hubbys work. I just hope i can get in at least for a one time contract. it would help out on our bills big time. lets just say I would be putting over $1000 per months onto our credit card over what im making right now. fingers crossed.

lets see what else? oh....we are loving this new game show on tv right now, Duel. have you seen it? its great trivia/common knowledge stuff. its amazing how much i really know...and here i thought i was dumb. i would smoke some of these people on there.

Im sure i can go on about lots of things but i should save it for another day since i really should start doing this again to get things off my mind.

hope you have a wonderful christmas with your family and happy new year.

big hugs to you.

Small October update......

2007-10-14T19:01:00.000-03:00

Hi all....stopping in to link up my blog to my hubby new "geek" game (sorry to anyone i might offend calling them a geek if you play this game...lol) If you want to become a virtual reality trucker click on the link above.

we are doing good here. school is going ok for kiddo. having a hard time still being prepared for different classes. she is also showing her true "tween" attitude of late with me and im having a hard time ...it always seems like we are arguing.

im no longer at the video store and have been working at one of the local grocery stores in their meals to go area. we do the cold case salads, pizzas to order and also a hot case with fried chicken, wings, baked whole chicken, fries, small cooked hams. its a very busy area of the store and im never bored or have time to relax. only working 2 shifts a week which is what i want.

my knee is doing so so. like before i have good days and bad days. just have to remember to take my pills.

hope all is well with you. big hugs and talk to you again soon.

hello stranger.....

2007-09-20T09:00:00.000-03:00

Im not gone...just taking a break from blogging. just not inspired to write lately. I will be back, just not sure when.

hope all is well with you.

big hugs and much love,
Cali~

A little bit of this, A little bit of that........

2007-08-27T09:01:00.000-03:00

It has been a week of ups and downs. not sure why...but my moods have been just all over the board this past week and yes...im taking my meds...lol...and no its not that time of the month. my sleep is also being effected so that doesnt help either.

other then THAT...things here are good. we are poor now after vacation but thats ok...we had a wonderful time and lots of great memories and pictures to remember it.

school starts here on september 6th...so less then two weeks away. im a little nervous for kiddo starting a new school...but im excited that i will have my alone time back. bad bad mom i am.

3 more days until our 5th wedding anniversary. he got me a beautiful ring...something i have mentioned jokingly i wanted for this anniversary for 3 years now. i get to pick it up sometime at the beginning next week when it comes in. i got his gifts put away until thursday...he has no clue what i have for him. although he might know one of them...not sure. i will tell you after i give it to him since i know he reads this.

this week at the movie theater in town they are showing 4 different movies during the day (normally they are closed until after 6pm). its Toonie Mantinee Week. so today me, kiddo and her friend are going to see Evan Almighty. tomorrow and wednesday we will see Nancy Drew and Shrek 3. not bad for $2 each.

hope you have been well. sending hugs your way :)

summer is almost over.....

2007-08-20T15:02:00.000-03:00

today feels like a nice early Fall day. sun is out and a slight breeze is blowing. the air is cool but not too cold to need a sweater. just a beautiful day out.

got all of kiddos school supply shopping done this morning. $61.00 lighter but lots to show for. im just hoping we got everything she needs even though we got everything on her list there always seems to be something else that is needed later. in addition to her normal supplies she needed....she wanted some things for her locker. this is her first year with a locker and im excited for her about this and pretty much gave in to all the little goodies she wanted to decorate it.

this past weekend i was hit with a wicked flu bug of some sort. it hit me mid day friday and by friday night i was down for the count. saturday i just felt ick all day and all i wanted to do was sleep. slept most of saturday away as well as sunday.

today im feeling almost back to normal. ALMOST. all i know is what ever i had it was bad and wiped me out big time for 48 hours.

my knee is still an issue....no changes with it.

nothing else much going on here. ok fine i lied. but the couple of things that are going on i would rather not put on here due to privacy issues....and well you know how that can be...some things just dont belong on the world wide web.

my step dad is home and doing ok. taking lots of meds and just taking one day at a time. my mom is frustrated with all she has to do at the house...taking care of my sisters 3 kids during the day as well as my stepdad. she is tired but like him...is taking one day at a time. thats all she can do. i just feel sad after talking to her cuz i hear it in her voice how tired, depressed, angry she is...its not her normal chipper way about her. this past year or so has really changed her attitude toward things that normally rolled off her back. so odd to have her this way.

lets see what else.....our 5 year wedding anniversary is coming up on the 30th. i have to say in reguards to my love life.....the past 5 years has been the best i have had in over a decade. he is the love of my life and im so glad i found him when i did.

enough mushy mush. hope all is well with you.
big hugs

Anybody still there?......

2007-08-13T15:11:00.001-03:00

Just sat here trying to think of what to say on why i havent blogged in over two weeks now. I guess its plain and simple....just havent been in the mood.

first week I was busy with kiddo being gone at camp....and well you know...spending time with hubby and doing other stuff.

I also did some spring cleaning (in the summer) and got rid of lots of stuff. still have our bedrooms to do...but it was a start.

im off work until after september 10th and then im back a couple days a week. im going to see how it goes and decide if its worth the extra little bit of a paycheck or not.

my knee has been so-so...i have good days and bad days no matter what i do i never know how my day is going to be until i get up in the morning and get going. its so odd i can do nothing and it will still be killing. i really hate having this knee problem.

as of this past thursday my stepdad is in the hospital again for breathing problems. he has had ongoing problems now for over a year and things arent getting better...only worse. the doctor has told my mom that they really cant do much more for him and it can be anytime now. this information just has me in a funk and just feeling depressed about the whole thing. im sad for him and im worried about my mom.

there is so much more to this but i will just get more upset talking about it so im not going to right now. i have to decide what im going to do if and when he passes if im going to fly back for the funeral or wait until after all of that and then go after to just be there for my mom. the hard part about all this is deciding to go at all. it would cost me over a thousand dollars to go. i have it on my credit card but its just the fact of using and not having it for things here. and then there is the whole thing about, do i take kiddo with me or not. if i do...that even more money and we really dont have that to spare....so that is easy to decide....but it still bugs me not taking her. if i dont take her will she be ok without me here for 2 weeks while im gone? if i do go im sure it will be after school starts and i always like being here for her with school stuff....even more so right now since she is going to be going to a different school this year (junior high) and dealing with class changing and all that stuff.

i worry about everything. every detail. i was up last night for 2 hours just laying there thinking about things. just have to wait and see what happens and go from there. just dont like being unprepared and no have some kind of plan.

anyway....i added some more trip pictures this morning and still have more to add.

hope you are doing well. hugs

update: spoke with my mom and my step dad is going to be going home today from hospital for now. they have his breathing under control but doctor did say they cant do much more for him other then the meds he is on now. each hospital visit is getting closer to the other each time. so now we just take one day and week at a time.

Vacation photo update.....

2007-07-29T17:51:00.000-03:00

Today i have been busy adding lots and lots of our vacation photos. there are over a 150 new photos to look at. just click on the flickr link thingy on the right side. the pictures are all put into one folder (family vacation 2007) so you can find them easy. hope you enjoy.

I'm melting!......

2007-07-27T15:30:00.000-03:00

today at 3:30pm the temp is 31c/87f with the humidy it feels like 39c/102f. IT'S TOO DAMN HOT! Dont feel like doing anything but sitting here and sweating.

What better a time (3:20am) to start part one of my vacation story....

2007-07-26T03:14:00.001-03:00

Yep you heard that right....3:20am thursday morning. its just too hot to sleep (hovering about 20c/70f) so i figured why not just get up and do this since i have been home for over a week now since we got home from vacation.

We started off early monday july 2nd so no late night fireworks for us on Canada Day this year. since im the only one that drives i wasnt planning on over doing it and just taking our time getting to each point. our first stop was going to be Edmondston New Brunswick. but on the way we stopped off in Fredericton (we had to) to visit his sister for a hour or so.

once we hit Edmondston we stayed at the Chateau Edmundston for one night. over all it was a nice hotel. we didnt care much for the indoor pool...seemed very old and and needed to be updated. but again...overall it was a nice place.

the next morning we were off to Montreal Quebec to visit with hubbys niece. we arrived there just after noon and enjoyed the afternoon with her and her 4 year old (i have to check that one)daughter. her apartment is on the 12th floor of the building and there is a great view of the Olympic Stadium and town. I have to say i dont miss the traffic of a city one bit. montreal just seem like one big traffic jam the whole time we were there. also, the noice in the city is another thing i dont really miss...but i have to say that it didnt really bother me so much either. it reminded me of the sounds i had back home in california. lots of traffic going by and sirens always happening from either police or other emergency vehicle...and then the helicopters buzzing over often....just like back in L.A. we hung out there until 5pm or so (cant remember) and then headed off to find a hotel to stay somewhere between there and niagra falls.

we ended up staying in a town called Brockville just into Ontario. we stayed at the Quality Hotel just going by our CAA book when we drove into town. if i would have looked this one up online i wouldnt have gone due to the poor rating and comments. BUT...we found the place to be nice. we got ourselves a "1 queen bed suite" that had a seperate room with a pullout couch in it for kiddo. we were quite happy with the bed and pillows which we had a hard time with at the first hotel so we slept great. my only thing about this room that bothered me was the size of the bathroom. it was as big as the closet...you had the shower/bathtub to the left when you walked in and the toilet straight in with the sink to the right. not much room between the sink and shower...two people couldnt be in there at the same time thats for sure. overall....the place was good enough for us that night.

the next morning...wednesday was our day to drive to niagra falls. we were excited to get going early but wanted to get something good for breakfast other then what the hotel offered. so on recommendation from the hotel staff we went to this family owned place that specialized in Italian food for lunch and dinner but served up a good cheap breakfast. why not! it wasnt far from the hotel (on the way back to the highway) and they had great breakfast specials and the food was GREAT! we even ate at the bar counter and chatted with the owner and our waitress who were very nice. she told us to make sure when we were on the highway to stop off at The Big Apple in Colbourne (ontario).

the big apple
Originally uploaded by caligirlpei

thats me and kiddo infront of the Big Apple during our stop. this place makes their own pies and you can watch it happen if they are making them when you happen to stop in. there is a huge gift shop attached to it with almost everything apple in it as well as a caffateria. you buy their pies for $10 each or you can just buy a slice to enjoy. they offer lots of other stuff to eat if you are in need of a meal on the road. there are also other things to do if you stop there...there is mini golf, petting zoo, small ride ons for the little ones (it was raining when we stopped so nothing was open..but thats ok).

Yummy apple pie worth the stop
Originally uploaded by caligirlpei

they both got only slushies but I got a piece of apple crumble pie. OMG, it was one of the best apple pies i have eaten.

im ready for the big drive ahead in anticipation of getting to Niagra Falls Ontario Canada.

To be continued.......

vacation update....

2007-07-19T16:03:00.001-03:00

slowly but surely adding photos to my flickr account. check them out!

Did you miss me?.....

2007-07-17T09:11:00.000-03:00

I'm back from vacation and have lots to talk about and pictures to show. I will be updating this in the next couple days with all the fun details.

we did road trip from our home on Prince Edward Island to Niagra Falls, Downtown Toronto and Ottawa. had such a nice time I didnt really want to come home but all good things must come to and end.

hope the beginning of your summer is going well....
talk to you soon....big hugs

What day is it?......

2007-07-01T09:56:00.000-03:00

Happy Canada Day!!!!

This is my 5th Canada here with many more to come. we arent doing much today other then hanging out and maybe going down to the waterfront to partake in some of the town activies.

after today I will be taking a break from blogging for 2 weeks. I WILL BE BACK THOUGH....so dont get all excited im leaving. :p~

Have a great Canada Day to all the Canadians and Happy 4th of July to everyone down south.

hugs to you :)

sleepless night....

2007-06-28T09:06:00.000-03:00

at about 2am this morning i was wake and laying there when i heard something in the distance. my ears perked up a bit and then i opened my eyes and again laid there to see what i thought i was hearing. yep! it was a thunderstorm out in the distance but was putting on a great light show. i listened to it for over 30 minutes before it was close to us. there was way more lightning then thunder with this storm but the thunder that we did get was my favorite of all. its the thunder that just rolls past and not loud claps.

kiddo came out once to see if we had heard it and say she was a little nervous over it. we went over the whole thing about storms and sent her back to bed. we talked for a bit and i commented how i wish she had the enjoyment i get out of thunderstorms when we get them. but then i took it back just a bit...because i had said after the fact... "thunderstorms are so romantical...and they get me all hot inside!" lol "oh wait...she isnt allowed to get hot inside yet....ewww...never mind" LOL and we listened some more to the storm and i finally dosed back to sleep sometime after 3am.

hope you are having a nice week so far.....
hugs

im adding in the pictures (LOTS OF THEM) from our trip to halifax and a few extra right now. so they will all be in today.

School is out for summer!.....

2007-06-27T08:55:00.000-03:00

this past monday my kiddo graduated from grade 6. i will say that im very proud of her and was nicely surprised to see she got an A in science for the third semester. but i wasnt sure how i felt about her moving onto intermediate school at that time until we had a meeting with her current teachers, the district autism specialist, the teachers aide she had this year and (i cant remember his title) person that will work with kiddo on what will work best for her and help her adjust to junior high and different classes. it was a great meeting and i was so happy to all the help and things that she will be getting next year to make it work best for her.

im very proud of my kiddo! but now after turning 40 and THIS...i totally feel old now.

hugs to you

just not in the mood.....

2007-06-21T12:43:00.000-03:00

ack! havent posted the pictures yet. but will be doing that this weekend. just havent been in the mood to do ANYTHING. i did upload them to the computer....so one step down. i feel like i have hit another funk....something i havent really had in sometime now. but its definitly a funk of blue. not sure what it is....could be a number of things. kiddo is almost done with elementary school and moving up to junior high (freaks me out). kiddos behavior issues. being off work again for 2 months due to my health issues. our upcoming family vacation and money. money is always something that bothers me.

what I did over my weekend.....

2007-06-19T09:38:00.000-03:00

Just had a nice weekend in Halifax. we had to hit the U.S. Consolate on monday morning so we decided to make a whole weekend of it and tour the city. we went to the Maritime museum of the Atlantic friday afternoon after we arrived. saturday we did the Nova Scotia museum of natural history and discovery center. sunday we went to the Citadel. oh my gosh that place is so cool and worth a trip there if you are in town.

going over we took the ferry instead of the bridge which was a wonderful experience for myself and kiddo since we had never been on a ferry. our ride over was very calm and smooth but our ride back was just a little bumpy.

i will be posting pictures on my flickr account sometime later today (tuesday) after i download them.

hope you had a good weekend.

hugs

Yet again....

2007-06-13T10:24:00.001-03:00

As of this past monday I am off work again for 6-8 weeks due to my knee and other little things. when i saw the doctor i asked him again if i can try something else for my knee since i was again in constant pain. he put me on Arthrotec 75. we shall see how this goes, but was told that if i have any symptoms of stomach probs i have to stop them immediatly. not sure yet how they are doing...my tummy has been a little off the past few days anyways from other stressful things.

wish me luck. im just tired of the cronic pain and want some relief.

hugs to you and hope you are having a good week and even a better weekend.

OMFG!!!!

2007-06-08T15:12:00.000-03:00

All this Paris Hilton stuff is just insane. If I was the one in jail and crying non stop with hives all over my body and on the verge of a nervous breakdown I would have been sent to the jails medical facility (or hospital they contract with), taken care of for the hives due to stress and told to suck it up while the door slams behind me as i go back to my cell.

i dont think this poor little rich girl had ever been sent to her room for punishment as a child by the looks of this. just so unbelievable that she can get out of such a short sentance as it is.

i guess if you are a rich white girl you can get out of anything. pfffft! CNN is all over this right now to see if she has to go back to jail or if the house arrest if enough. the drama continues.

THIS JUST IN.....she is going back to jail. lock the door and let the poor little rich girl cry. mayb she will truly learn from this.

ummm, yeah.

2007-06-07T10:18:00.000-03:00

It's only getting better....

2007-06-05T09:07:00.000-03:00

I always dread the end of the television season. the few weeks following are terrible and nothing is on tv to watch. but its slowly getting better.

the summer shows are starting and tv is slowly getting better again (at least for me and hubby).

so far we have: So you think you can dance. there have been 2 episode so far...the auditions. like Idol these are the best and a laugh riot on how delusional some people are on how good they are. i do feel bad for some of them on how clueless they are and seem like they have never seen the show themselves and no clue what calibur of dancer they are looking for.

last night one of our favorite summer show started: Hells Kitchen. oh my gosh this show is harsh. all i have to say about Gordan Ramsey is he would me cry at the very first word out of his mouth towards me. i cant handle someone yelling at me like that.....i guess thats why i know i will never be on this show. lol the contestants this season are lets just say "interesting". after only one show i have no clue who im going to root for...but oh my gosh there are a few (not saying who yet) i feel shouldnt have even been put on the show. i guess you have to have those to make a good show.

there have been a couple other shows that have started that im not a fan of. the pirate one....or should i say the "summer survivor" show. its ok....not for me.....but hubby likes it.

hope you are having a good week so far. mine is ok. knee has been really killing me since i had to stop the meds due to the stomach problems that i have to get under control before he will let me back onto them. so its just tylonal #2 for me and thats it. *sigh* so my depression is trying to get the best of me even though im taking my meds like im supposed to....its so hard.

big hugs to you.....

A new obsession of mine....

2007-06-04T10:48:00.000-03:00

a few weeks ago while watching Oprah she had on Criss Angel and I watched only due to nothing else being on. I had known about him for sometime now but never was a real fan. but after seeing him on Oprah I saw him in a different light. not sure what it was but i really enjoyed him.

well....to my joy ...this weekend on A&E there were several hours of Mind Freak being played and since again nothing else was on tv and we were having a very lazy sunday at home i watched about 4 hours of it. IM HOOKED! i totally enjoyed watching his slight of hand tricks. the one thing that im not a big fan of....and this goes for all the other magicians/illusionists are the "big" tricks. i can watch slight of hand and mind tricks all day long.

im now a new fan of his and im looking forward to watching the start of his third season of Mind Freak.

today on the A&E website he is having a live webcast of his current escape (cement block) he's doing in new york city. it just started over a hour ago and will go until tomorrow morning. im planning on keeping an eye on him.

have a good monday...hugs

Yep....I'm 40!

2007-05-30T08:18:00.001-03:00

FINE! so what! yeah im 40 today and its a bright and sunny day. I guess I should try and embrace this whole being in my fortys thing. for some reason I really feel like my mom now ... I dont know why. im hoping my fortys are going to be better then my thirtys which were full of major ups and downs in my life...more then any decade so far....so my fortys should be better.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

....im off to work for a short shift in hopes that inventory went well yesterday and I dont have a mess or million things to take care of.

hugs to you and have a great day!

YIKES!

2007-05-29T07:48:00.000-03:00

*sigh* one more day of being 39. for some reason this birthday is not sitting well with me. i know the saying is "you're only as old as you feel" but this past year i have been feeling way older cuz of my health stuff and now this birthday is taking me out of the 30's.

oh well...at least im here to bitch and complain about it...lol tomorrow is the start of me being in my 40's. YIKES.

hugs to you ...have a great tuesday.

Gooooood morning where ever you are.....

2007-05-26T09:50:00.000-03:00

It's saturday
...im off work (didnt even ask for it)
...had a nice thunderstorm roll in last night around 12:30am which i loved
...slept in a little
...have no plans for today
...the sun is shining
...the temp is supposed to be over 20c today
...the house windows are open and a nice breeze is blowing through
...lol...hubby is still sleeping and snoring away (9:50am)
...i can actually say at this very moment im content and relaxed.

have a wonderful saturday

Tired is a 5 letter word.....

2007-05-24T08:08:00.001-03:00

Im tired....

...tired of arguing with my 12yr old in the morning.
...tired of things being a constant fight.
...tired of her smart mouth.
...tired of her thinking she knows more then me.
...tired of worrying about if she is acting like this towards other adults.
...tired of all the stress i get from the above.

just down right tired of all this. this was my morning today and im not a happy camper. sometimes i really hate being a parent.

i can go on about other things im tired of such as my health right now but im not...i think that says it all on how im doing.

i was tagged by knitting nana this past week and will get to that sometime soon...i havent forgotten about it.

hope your week is going better then mine. hugs

note: mood to the right does not reflect my current mood. for some reason im having trouble changing it on the main site.

Mid May snow

2007-05-17T10:16:00.001-03:00

Mid May snow
Originally uploaded by caligirlpei.

yep...this is what we got this morning. right now its raining ice pellets changing over to rain. it looks like something we get in october.

have a great day where you are....
hugs

FINE!...I went, ok?.....

2007-05-16T09:50:00.000-03:00

It's all over. I went this morning and had my front tooth fixed that I chicked out on doing last week. getting the injections made me cry this time....i wasnt proud that i did but im done and its all over now.

i have to say though that having a dentist that is so nice and not bad to look at either is a plus. but still...its those damn injections that kill me every time.

I had a wonderful mothers day of eating and doing nothing. her quasadillas she made me for breakfast were really good. when we had lobster for lunch we had fun playing with them first and then we all enjoyed eating them around the table. kiddo tried lobster for the first time ...she totally loved it and is now a lobster crazed person like me...lol.

hubby is still home sick with me....this is week number 3. it took this cough a full 2 weeks before it started to go away...just this past saturday he was finally feeling better and as of sunday he has been with no cough at all and we are both sleeping much better. now he is home just getting his energy back and recouping from all the coughing and no sleep he got over the past two weeks.

i love having him home with me during the days...but i also feel bad that im anxious for hime to get back to work (tues, may 22nd) so i can have some alone time. im so bad!

hope you are having a good week so far and it continues.

hugs to you

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!

2007-05-13T09:48:00.000-03:00

To all the mothers out there I wish you a very happy mothers day. this is your day!

my one request for my kiddo was to have her make my meals for me today just like i do for her everyday. so this morning she is making me her specialty (the one thing she does make on her own) quesadillas. for lunch i am feasting on some beautiful lobsters we picked up at the store yesterday for a great price and couldnt pass up ($6.99/lb for cooked)...all she has to do for this one is put it on a plate and let me go at it...stay away from my hands and mouth! lol for dinner i wanted her to be able to do something on her own again so i went simple and im easy to please....we are having hotdogs and macarroni salad. all she has to do is heat the hot dogs and set the table with everything and presto...she is done.

im looking forward to my day of not having to step into the kitchen and make something. after breakfast im going to watch The Fountain with Hugh Jackman in it (it comes out on tuesday) and then the NASCAR race that was delayed from yesterday due to rain. oh what a nice day this is going to be. oh...and survivor finally tonight is on also....GO EARL!

have a nice sunday...and again happy mothers day to you.

hugs

And one more thing I forgot....

2007-05-08T08:15:00.000-03:00

friday morning when i woke up i realized that a filling that was in my front tooth had come out. yep...i lost a filling in my front tooth! so i called the dentist office that morning and he was out and not in until tuesday.

guess what? i have a dentist appointment today to get this fixed. im so full of anxiety this morning i hardly slept last night. of all the teeth that this happed to this is the worst for me. its the injections they have to give to numb it that bother me the most and for some reason they seem to hurt me most when dealing with the front teeth.

i keep tossing in my head about cancelling out and going until next week but then i will be a nervous reck all week again and to top it off i wont be smiling all week since i have a partial tooth showing.

hope you are having a good week so far. let you know how this goes....wish me luck!

hugs

edit...10:50am: I CHICKENED OUT! i just couldnt do it today. my anxiety level is just too high. i know the only way i can do this is to have my appoinment first thing in the morning after i get them off to school and work with no sitting around thinking about whats to come. i made another appointment for next week at 9am. yeah im chickenshit and i know it.

big comfy couch.....(long post)

2007-05-07T08:07:00.000-03:00

First off let me start by saying that I just havent been in the mood to post anything on my blog. I lay in bed sometimes thinking of all this stuff i could write and its actually quite witty and full of details. but when i finally get up and sit in front of this beast nothing comes to me but whining and ramble. *shrugs* so i just dont post.

I feel that an update is overdue here...so here goes....

this past week has been a week of very little sleep for me and almost no sleep for dear hubby. his cough has just be horrible. last monday or tuesday (i forgot which day) he went to the doctors and was told at the time that all he could really do is tough it out and drink lots of hot steamy liquid to loosen up the mucus. as the week went on it stayed the same but then on thurday night it seem to get worse and friday was the most misserable for him.

i have to add that he has been so sweet going out into the living room to let me TRY and sleep while he sat up coughing out there. i didnt sleep much...i just wanted to take care of him and make sure he was ok. i think its that "mother" thing in all of us that push us to care for someone else then ourselves.

after i got home from work friday i got us some dinner and then at about 7:45 we decided we better go to the urgent care/emergency room. the reason we didnt want to wait the weekend and see our own doctor was that now when he coughed he was getting very short of breathe and almost choked a couple times getting stuff up.

we arrived at the ER at 8pm and waited. we waited until 11pm to just get into a room. then at midnight he was sent for a chest xray....and then just before 1am the doctor came in and saw him. he prescribed a nebulizer (sp?) and meds w/saline to help loosen up stuff and sent him home. we were sure they would put him in the hospital just in case...but they didnt since his chest was showing clear at the time.

since it was 1:00am in the morning the pharmacy of course was closed so he coughed all night in the living room while i tried to sleep since i had to be at work at 9:30am the next morning. i got up at 7:30am...showered and headed out the pharmacy that opened at 8am. got his stuff, came home and showed him how to use the machine and administer the dosage needed into it. then off to work i went.

considering how dead tired i was at work i was over compensating it by being the nicest person i could be....lol nobody pissed me off and i wasnt grumpy at all. i was actually sweet as punch and i actually had a few customers even say how helpful and kind i was....lol...little do they know how i was really feeling. i was able to get the next shift person to come in a little early and i went home just after 2pm.

the machine is definitly helping his cough loosen up but he is still coughing and not sleeping. he is just exhausted and i feel so bad for him. he would be so much better if he could get just one good night sleep.

work sunday for me was slow so it made for a really really long day. so on the way home i stopped at M&M Meats and got something quick to pop in the oven for dinner so i didnt have to cook.

hubby stayed in the living room again for me since i laid down at 6:30pm and fell asleep for a few hours. he came in the room at 4am and just wanted to be comfy in bed for a bit and would go back out if his cough bothered me. will....his cough kicked in again and i went to the living room letting him have the bed since i dont have work today and he needed the comfy bed more then me. i watched some news on tv...had a bowl of cherrios and then fell back to sleep about 6am and back up again at 7am to get kiddo going for school today.

i asked hubby how he was doing today and we decided if no change we were going to see our doctor this morning to see what he says and let him know what happened over the weekend.

so that was my week.....how are you doing?

One thing after another....

2007-05-01T07:59:00.000-03:00

I had a busy but ok weekend. had work both saturday and sunday mornings. kiddo has had a cold since friday (i think) but went full blown sunday morning. hubby is now also sick with a cough that just wont let him rest. we are going to the doctors today since he cant take most cold meds due to his blood pressure and heart pills....he has to just usually tough it out...but this one is just bad. he also cant cough hard enough like most people due to his muscular dystrophy so i worry about his lungs not getting cleared out enough. so like i said...we are off to the doctors this morning.

i swear this damn kid cant be quiet! we are up getting ready for school right now and she had her chore to do....take out the compost trash and then take the can to the curb. hubby is trying to rest until its almost time to go and she come barrelling into the door after taking out the compost yelling "there's snow on the ground!!" all the while banging the two compost cans together....and slamming the door. OMG! kids have no clue how to be quiet. GRRRR.

the snow that came down is only a dusting and is changing over to rain today...its pretty but nothing that will stay more then few hours.

i will be playing nurse to hubby and also try and get some sleep myself since i havent been sleeping the past few nights either with him coughing and making sure he is ok. if im not careful and dont get some sleep im going to end up sick also from not being rested.

yikes!!!...just realized today is may 1st. only 29 more sleeps until im 40!

hope you have a good day today....big hugs to you :)

just a little shade of blue......

2007-04-27T11:53:00.000-03:00

as a parent there are days you just wonder why you are a parent. yesterday i felt like the i should have won the worst parent award. for some reason lately kiddo and i have not been seeing eye to eye on anything. from how i see it....all she seems to do is argue every little thing with me...everything!

anyway...yesterday morning wasnt the best and i know we didnt leave on good terms when i dropped her off for school because we always say "i love you" before she gets out of the car and i got nothing but a cold shoulder. i called her back to the car window after she got out and told her that i loved her and she say "ok" but nothing else. i was so upset i gave her a line my gave me a few times when i was a snot. the line....."how bad would you feel if something happened to me today and this is the last time you see me?" she shrugged it off and grunted out..."love you" as she turned and walked away.

i was so upset i cried all the way home. cleared off my face....went back inside the house to finish getting ready to head out for the day with hubby. i was in such a funk all morning. the 45 minute drive into the next town was quiet. we did our stop to CAA for trip stuff and then into Linens N Things and bought a few things because we kinda needed them and i was in the mood to shop. i still dont like buying things just for myself but we bought things for the house.

headed to Michaels for a couple things kiddo needs for a school project and then went to lunch. made hubby pick where he wanted to go...i wasnt in the mood to eat or decide where to eat.
while we waited to order hubby had to step away...as he was away i was on the verge of tears from the events that happened earlier...im just glad he came back quick cuz i almost lost it right there at the table.

we ate at Eastside Marios and found it very good considering im normally not one for italian food as my choice of foods. i had fettichini afredo with shrimp...yummm. dont remember what hubby had but it was some pasta filled things with a nice cheesy sauce.

i feel like my anti -depressents (sp?) are playing tug of war the was two days now. i was feeling very leveled out the past few weeks. nothing bad but nothing good....just ok. for me that is good...the lows arent there like they were 2 months ago. but yesterday and today are so hard for me.

I had to go to the doctors today also because those acid pills i was taking the past few weeks havent really helped and have had 2 other major attacks of gas and abdominal pain from it since taking the pills so i had to go in and let him know. we have ruled out now that its not an acid problem. so....next step is to work our way down from the tummy. we are trying something else now that i have to take now with every meal. long story on what we think it might be and just too much TMI also. either way....i started something new today.

also since the acid thing isnt what is causing my gas and discomfort i can go back on my knee pills also. THANK YOU! my knee is almost back to the way it was before starting the knee meds...meaning i get sharp pains just sitting and doing nothing, sleeping, etc.

im just so frustrated with my health lately. but i am thankful that my anti-depressents are somewhat helping me cuz i know i would be in the dark hole if i wasnt. im only halfway down that hole right now...its KINDA undercontrol (just barely).

work both saturday and sunday this weekend. mother in law isnt coming since im working and i felt a little over whelmed with work, and everything at once to make each night go smooth before going out either to bingo or and evening out with hubby. so she said another time....which is so nice of her. my mental state isnt the greatest lately and she understands that.

enough of my ramble today...just feeling a bit down and tired of feeling sick and tired of the pain in my knee. thank you for listening to me.

hope you are well.....big hugs to you.

One week....

2007-04-24T09:07:00.000-03:00

A great Bare Naked Ladies song and how long its been since I last blogged. YIKES! Im still here just not posting....bad girl.

had a nice past weekend. we took kiddo to his moms friday after work and school and had a nice quiet evening at home together. saturday unfortunatly i had to work the morning shift which was really painfully slow since the weather here has finally switched over to spring.

hubbys work was having a social committee function... BINGO... so of course we were going to that and have some fun. neither of us won anything but did have fun. after bingo we headed a trivia that was going on that night and came in 2nd place...wohoo!

sunday morning was so nice. i actually slept good for the first time in over a week and we slept in until after 10am. what a nice day it was. we decided to take a drive around before picking up kiddo. it was so nice to have the windows down while driving.

yesterday was the first day i finally started back on my knee pills. it will take a few days for the meds to get back in my system and we shall see how the effect me. im hoping it will be ok cuz the tylenol #2's werent doing the best of jobs.

hope you had a good weekend....and heres to a wonderful week.

hugs

Damn fingers......

2007-04-17T10:22:00.000-03:00

CRAP CRAP CRAP!!!!!!

I had a long post about my feeling regarding the Virginia Tech shooting and the war and my stupid fingers where going so fast that i hit a wrong key or something and POOF it was deleted. GRRRR! i guess it wasnt meant to be read on how i feel. my policital view is something i keep to myself anyway for the most part...so there you have it.

at least i got a good cry out of it and my heart aches just a little less for those who are suffering today...and reminding me how thankful i should be for everyday i am alive and well with my family.

big healing hugs to you and world.

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And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
When nobody died...

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

*lyrics by: Nickleback

If it isnt one thing...its another....

2007-04-16T09:23:00.000-03:00

With everything that is going on with me....I GOT KIDDOS DARN COLD! blah!

It's official.....

2007-04-13T07:52:00.000-03:00

Yep...another storm day! there was nothing going on when i got up at 7am this morning so I got kiddo up for school, got me showered and lunches made. she sits down to eat breakfast...we turn on the radio (still nothing going on outside yet) only to find out school has been cancelled for the day! WHAT???? omg....so i go tell hubby this who is still sleeping and since he still wasnt feeling 100% still and came home early from work yesterday he is going to stay home with kiddo instead of making her go to work with me....she is thrilled to say the least...lol.

when we were listening to the radio again about weather and storm watch the announcer said that it should be starting anytime now with what is showing on the radar and sure enough....i looked outside and it was slowly starting. MOTHERF'R!

the weather is calling for snow to start this morning...heavy at times through out day 15-20cm expected this afternoon and early evening.

*insert sarcasm here*....OH its going to be such a great day! (note the mood im in to the right)

im heading to work in just over a hour and i know that with school being out now and the storm just starting im in for a very busy morning. im just hoping that my relief person will make it in at 2:30pm. hubby joked that she should remember to bring her sleeping bag and food since we never close and we must be there to keep the store open...lol

my only hope is that we are plowed out saturday morning before noon time because kiddo and hubby both have hair cut appointments. kiddo really needs one and is past the length allowed for cadets if she wants to continue to wear her hair down and not pulled back into a bun. we shall see.

have a great friday and even better weekend where you are.
HUGS

.....I just realized something too. IT'S FRIDAY THE 13TH!!! now it explains all this.

Unbelievable!.....

2007-04-12T11:02:00.000-03:00

got up this morning and hubby informed me that we are under a winter storm warning again for tomorrow. ...and guess who opens the store tomorrow....ME! from what the warning/watch says its going to get worse as the day goes on so opening the store should be no problem at all. the only worry i have is if the storm starts to get worse before school gets out and they close school early which means we have to figure out what we are going to do since i have to work until 3pm when school normally gets out. i cant just leave. hubby says he will cab it home or get a ride from someone and either have kiddo walk home in the mess or if someone gives him a ride home they can whip by the school and get kiddo. I DONT KNOW! just have to wait and see what comes of this. good thing im not working saturday when they say by saturday morning we will have at least 15cm of snow again on the ground. wohoo! im sure it will all be done by the time i have to be at work again sunday morning. ??? its supposed to be sunny and a high of 3c sunday....we are on a weather roller coaster this month.

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Winter storm watch for:Prince County
TOTAL SNOWFALL AMOUNTS IN EXCESS OF 15 CENTIMETRES ARE POSSIBLE BY SATURDAY MORNING. THIS IS AN ALERT TO THE POTENTIAL DEVELOPMENT OF DANGEROUS WINTER WEATHER CONDITIONS IN THESE REGIONS. MONITOR WEATHER CONDITIONS..LISTEN FOR UPDATED STATEMENTS.
A LOW PRESSURE SYSTEM IS FORECAST TO PASS JUST SOUTH OF NOVA SCOTIA ON FRIDAY. PRECIPITATION IS EXPECTED TO START AROUND MID MORNING FRIDAY WITH SNOW AT TIMES HEAVY IN THE AFTERNOON AND FRIDAY NIGHT. TOTAL SNOWFALL AMOUNTS IN EXCESS OF 15 CENTIMETRES ARE POSSIBLE BY SATURDAY MORNING. STRONG NORTHEASTERLIES WILL ALSO DEVELOP LATE IN THE DAY RESULTING IN LOCAL BLOWING SNOW.PLEASE REFER TO THE LATEST PUBLIC FORECASTS FOR FURTHER DETAILS.
ISSUED BY ENVIRONMENT CANADAAT 10:24 AM ADT THURSDAY 12 APRIL 2007

I guess an update is overdue.....

2007-04-11T10:45:00.000-03:00

So on easter sunday most of the town was snowed in and the roads were crap. our street finally got plowed out sometime after noon and our property management plow did the driveway just after 1pm. i headed out to work about 1:25 taking a bit long to get there with the roads being a bit slushy and full of drifts.

when i get closer to work i notice the parking lot was just being plowed and couldnt get in so i parked it in the next parking lot over until he was done...getting into work just after 2pm and opening the store at 2:20pm. i had a total of 4 customers in 3 hours. i just dont understand why we even had to open that day at all.

I almost didnt get out of there at 5:30 (actually left at 5:50pm) cuz my relief person that was to work at 5pm showed up and then said he had to leave after being there for only 5 minutes because he was having a panic attack and just bolted. its bad enough that i had to work easter sunday and put all my family stuff on hold until i get home but it was managable...then this. i was pissed. so i called the manager to let him know what happened. with all this going on hubby is sick also with a flare up of his diverticulious and i had to get to the drug store before it closed at 6pm in addition to fixing easter dinner for my family.

the manager first said he would come and let me head out to the pharmacy and then come back to work the rest of the day. i was somewhat shocked and i think i sounded a bit angry with him and told him i couldnt i had family things going on at home and i was supposed to be off at 5:30 even if i had only worked 3 hours. my family comes first in my world.

so manager came in since one of the other girls was snowed in and the other guy we have working for us doesnt know how to run the store on his own. we are short staffed again...can you tell?

easter sunday was the longest day in my life for some reason. the stress of getting out of the house that morning then the fiasco with "panic attack boy" and feeling bad for the manager to come in on his day off. but im sorry to say this....thats why HE is the manager and IM NOT.

hubby as been sick all weekend with major pains in his side and taking my tylenol#2 to help ease the pain until we can get him into the doctors monday morning. kiddo had been sick also this weekend with a major sinus cold...so she was lucky to have that 4 day weekend.

doctor wrote hubby out of work for a few days for his symptoms to calm down with antibiotics and pain meds. he is doing a little better today (weds). not sure yet if he is going to work tomorrow.

this post is turning into whine central.....

one comment about my knee....its killing me. still havent been able to go back onto my knee meds just yet so its just not a topic of great joy with me.

other then that things are just grand. im sure there are other things i can ramble about but my mind went blank on my just now for some reason. hope you had a wonderful easter weekend and start to the work week.

hugs to you...

not even the cops should be out

2007-04-08T11:05:00.001-03:00

not even the cops should be out
Originally uploaded by caligirlpei.

11:00am and this is whats going on outside my door. our local cops shouldnt even be on the roads cuz the snow is so icy and thick. like driving on a few feet of slushy/icee.

not sure yet about what time im heading into work after seeing this. the road isnt even plowed yet...and no cabs this way either.

Green Christmas...White Easter.....

2007-04-08T09:00:00.000-03:00

first off....HAPPY EASTER!

Yep...thats what we have here today....WHITE! we are having blizzard conditions since last night and im freaking out. why you ask...because im supposed to open the store today and im not sure what to do. i looked outside my front door and the drift is knee deep all the way down the sides of the car and down to the street. the snow is supposed to let up this afternoon and all that but this is the first time this has happened to me on a day that i have to open the store.

im planning on calling the manager to ask him what to do. postpone the store open until i can get out? take a cab if the cabs are running is my other option (he said he would compensate me for doing that if needed).

its nasty outside. im going to call him in 30 minutes to see what we are doing with the store.

.....more later on this. hubby took a couple pictures of yesterday outside for me and i will get a few from today to show you how much snow we got.

have a great Easter Sunday hugs

9:35am edit.....called cab company and they arent running this way yet....called store manager to let him know....he called district manager with no answer...so im on hold until at least noon when he calls me back to let me know what to do.

this picture was yesterday.....

and this picture was from this morning...... (other shots on my flickr to the right)

Smile, you're on candid camera.....

2007-04-04T08:55:00.000-03:00

Have to tell you the evening I had last night.

after getting kiddo home from school, homework done, dinner for her and picking up hubby from work....we took kiddo to Cadets for her meeting. after that we decided we were just going to go and get a pizza from Sobeys (grocery store for those that dont know the chain) and then go home and relax until pick up time for the monster.

so we venture into the store to order our pizza at the deli register. as we are standing there the woman working in the area was doing her "chores" for end of day looking up at us with what i felt was an eyeroll and sigh of "cant you see i have better things to do then help customers" look. there wasnt a "hi, can i help you" or "hi, anything for that matter". we told her we wanted to order a pizza and again got the feeling we were bothering her. we ordered the pizza and then asked if we could pay for it now....we get a sigh out of her and she walks away to get the bar code for the pizza to be rung in, returns, scans it and tells me how much it will be. do the transaction...she gives me my recipts and nothing. i stand there and ask her "20 minutes?"..her reply was "yeah...about that". OMG she had some stick up her butt. through all that i was still polite to her knowing she was making my pizza. but i will say this....there is going to be a letter to the deli manager about this employee and her customer service skills or lack there of. if the pizza there wasnt so good and we had other places to go to for what we like i wouldnt go there cuz of this....but im going to complain...it was so not right and she shouldnt be working with customers if that is how she treats them....bad day or not.

so while we were waiting for our pizza we took a walk into the mall and down to the book store for a browse. as we were looking at books for kiddo i was standing infront of a section a good arms length back from the shelf but reading the book spines to see what was there. this "lady" that was also looking at books decided to move directly in front of me and start looking at books. when i say in front of me i mean like we were standing in some line to look at the shelf. i stood there in amazement with my jaw hanging in shock that this women is doing what she just did. I made the comment "gee, i was looking at book but i'll move over here". this women didnt even react to what i said ....NOTHING. i said my comment loud enough that hubby heard me and he actually saw what happened and was laughing at the whole thing on how oblivious this woman was to what she had done.

thinking back on this i should have tapped her on the shoulder and excused her for doing what she did or something like that. but then i was also laughing to myself about how silly all this was and how i felt like i had been on candid camera or just for laughs because it was just so strange and insane how this all went down. im still in a shock how this woman did this to me...just flabbergasted...or gobsmacked as hubby said.

when it was time to get kiddo we went early and got a treat on the way (Wendys frosty treat). I went in to get the kiddo noticing that a couple other parent were going in tonight so i thought i would follow in to see them practice there drill. when i got in there i scanned the kids and didnt see my daughter at first knowing i dropped her off wearing a purple sweatshirt and jeans. but there she was....IN UNIFORM! i was so proud when i saw her all dressed up in her cadet uniform. she looks so good in it being tall and thin like she is. she fit right in with all the other kids and she even said she liked it. oh what a difference a uniform makes on a person on how they act and carry themselves. when we got home she asked us to take some pictures of her so we did and i helped her hang everything perfect and neatly so we didnt have to do anything to the uniform since it was all pressed and fresh looking for the next meeting.

with all the stress around kiddo lately with her attitude and school work this moment made it all go away (for that bit). its funny how as your kid grows you remember all the good and happy times over the bad and rough time. im so proud of her and hope she really puts everything she has into this and becomes confident in who she is.

hope you have a great wednesday.....hugs

To the doctor I go....

2007-04-02T11:42:00.000-03:00

my last post was no april fools joke...I wish it was. Last night was so bad for me that hubby urged me to see the doctor this morning....which I did. from what the doctor could figure out I have big time acid problem with possible burning going on....who knew that could cause such gas problems? anyway...he gave me a prescription for Omerprazole and told me that if he is right I should be feeling better by friday. if not I have to go see him on friday again and we go from there. the pills he said will take a couple days to work so i have to hang in there. the bad part in all this is i have to stop my knee pills until my stomach problems are done cuz those meds can irritate what ever is going on even more.

all i know is im tired of feeling like crap. if it isnt one thing its another and i told the doctor i feel like im falling apart before i even hit 40 and im scared for what is to come as i get older.

hope you have a good monday...hugs :)

put on your gas mask.....

2007-04-01T10:03:00.000-03:00

wow this blog lately has turned into my "sick" blog. all this past week i have been sick again with some stupid gastro/intestinal thing. NOT FUN. i have been nauseous and crampy. to put it nicely....if human gas could power the electricity in my house i would have my lights and everything else on 24/7 here and not worry about my bill at the end of the month. oh...and if there were any spiders or other creatures in this house...their dead now with all this fumigating i have been doing.

last night was the only night this week i had to work. guess what? i went...but ended up asking one of the others to extend their shift so i could go home. i was there a whole 50 minutes and had the cold sweats and more nauseous then i had felt all week.

im giving this darn thing until wednesday to evacuate then im heading to the doctors thursday. i hate going to the doctor for the flu or cold cuz all they tell you is to rest and all that but i think with it being this long they well do something. unless of course this gets worse then i have to go in sooner.

during this whole week i also stopped drinking soda because of all the carbination in it in hopes that will slow the gas factor down. its been so hard to not have my diet pepsi everyday...i have been drinking hot tea instead for my caffine intake (which is still way down)...but only in the morning. food wise...not much really. mostly toast. i try to eat other things when i think im feeling a bit better but then the gas and cramping come back again and its back to toast and noodle soup for me the next day.

so how have you been? im hoping all this gets done with soon. 2007 hasnt been the best for me health wise. i know it could be worse and this is minor to what others have to go through but that is what i fear is slowly happening to me.

hope all is well with you....big hugs

to the point......

2007-03-27T10:35:00.000-03:00

* my moods are a little better.
* my knee is KILLING me today. BIG TIME!
* laundry to do.
* dishes in the sink.
* I did clean off the kitchen table.
* grocery shopping done this morning..
* my knee is not my friend.
* march break is over and kiddo is back to school this week. WOHOO!
* hubby is done with overtime and he is getting home at normal time again.
* people parking in the crosshatch area next to the handicap spots are lazy moe-foes.
* shopping carts in the middle of a parking spot when cart corral 1 spot away. again lazy people.
* washed the car yesterday for the first time in over a month. love a clean car.
* still have to do our taxes. keep putting it off and we are getting a return.
* I noticed recently that I have a few more grey hairs on my head.
* feel bad for not blogging more often but feel if i do im just whining.
* pain in the knee sucks!
* other then my knee I feel pretty good today.

hope you have a great day today. big hugs to you :)

edit: 12pm...made some homemade macaronni salad. YUM. dishes are done and second load of laundry is in washer.

2007-03-22T10:46:00.000-03:00

One foot infront of the other.....

2007-03-20T09:53:00.000-03:00

hello from the cloud of depression.

things here are very very slowly looking better....as the saying goes...ONE DAY AT A TIME. I finished my first 2 weeks of the lower dose of antidepresents (sp?) and started the higher dose yesterday. I felt a little off all day...almost like a little queeziness but not quite nausous. its very hard to explain really...but on top of that it was the first day of march break here on the island for the kids.

she is already driving me nuts. but really and truly she is being well behaved with the exception of her mouth running a million miles a minute about everything and anything. wednesday will be my real test having her with me all day since i have take her to work with me because my boss obviously forgot it was march break and scheduled me the morning shift. oh well...i have a helper that day....give her something to do other then playing video games and watching tv.

I had lots of things I wanted to talk about but for some stupid reason i cant think of what it was now. its just a fuzzy mess.

hope all is well with you and your family. hugs

edit: just got done adding two/three pages worth of new pictures to my flickr account for veiwing if you like. all these were taken this past month and I had just not put them in until now.

Ummm, yeah.

2007-03-16T08:57:00.000-03:00

Still alive. Been dealing with my depression big time this week. Funny how the week before I finally went to talk to my doctor about getting back on meds and then i take a nose dive back into the big blue gunk. too bad the meds just dont work from day one when taking them. i have 2 more full weeks until (if any) i know they are working. THIS SHIT SUCKS. all i want to do is sleep all day and put on a smile when i go out or have to deal with anyone.

hope you have been well. big hugs to you.

lets party!

2007-03-10T09:22:00.000-04:00

HAPPY 12TH BIRTHDAY KIDDO!!!

my little girl is 12 years old today and I cant believe how quick these years have gone. she tells me she isnt little anymore but she will always be my baby as long as im breathing.

I love you sweetie

yep...its cold.

2007-03-07T09:07:00.000-04:00

BRRrrr.....its cold here! the temp right now is -13c with a windchill of -32c and the same will be for tomorrow. i dont mind the snow but when its so cold outside it hurts....its too damn cold!

havent been in the mood to blog lately. im not planning on stopping my blog...i think im just in the usual slump most of us go through. just havent been feeling up to writing about my many downs right now with my knee and my mouth. im still reading all my usual blogs daily and plan on at least posting 2 times a week minimum. who knows...i just might come back like a lion and post a few times a day like some of my regular blogs.

hugs to you and hope all is well.

update sunday....

2007-03-04T09:41:00.000-04:00

Im still here and didnt leave you. I just didnt feel like making anymore whining posts about my mouth and knee this week so i took some time away from writing. but since im here....my knee is so so as usual and my mouth is healing really show and think i have to go into the dentist to have him check it out. its still really sore around the extraction area....i might need some antibiotics.

I do have lots of pictures of our night thursday when we went to our towns new hockey arena to share and also i tried to get some shots of the lunar eclipse last night but i still have to download them, so they are coming soon and will let you know.

this will happen sometime tonight since im off to work here shortly for the day....WOHOO! I LOVE WORKING SUNDAYS!

hope all is well with you

Time to heal....

2007-02-28T09:37:00.000-04:00

I survived! the dentist only pulled the tooth that had to be filled and wanted to wait on the other things that needed to be done until this healed. he said he had to work the little booger out (it didnt want to go) but other then that it came out just fine. im very sore still 24 hours later but no swelling as of yet...he said if there was going to be anything odd to happen it will happen after 48 hours.

anyway...im off here to eat my lemon pudding and close my eyes for a bit.

happy hump day! hugs :)

Today is the day....

2007-02-27T09:46:00.000-04:00

I go to the dentist this morning to have a filling (or a few) done and to get a tooth pulled. i have been a mess the past few days worrying about this day.

I just want it over with. im leaving here in 45 minutes with a hubby here to greet me when i get home...he is home sick with the flu. was home with me yesterday also.

well let you know how it went when i get home and feel like sitting at the computer.

hugs to you

Didnt chicken out....

2007-02-21T15:28:00.000-04:00

Well, I went today to my dentist appointment. my head hurts right now from stress and anxiety and minor things done this morning. i did however chicken out of something. he also wanted to pull one of my molars that is beyond repair and i told him i would do it next week when i can prepare myself for it (im such a chicken shit). he thinks the pain im experiencing is from this tooth and wants to get it out before we move onto the other two teeth i thought i was having major problems with....the pain im having down toward those teeth is coming from this other one...go figure. he said after that tooth is pulled he wanted to see if the pain went away and if so we will crown those others since that is what i was to do with them almost a year ago. *sigh* i hate going to the dentist. one...because of the pain i have to endure every time i go even if i go just for a cleaning / check up ....there is always something. two...the cost of things when i let this stuff go. the extraction will only cost me $25'ish or so after my 80% is covered but the crowns are going to cost me over $500 each out of my own pocket after insurance....WTF? not sure what orifice im going to pull that money out of but it has to get done.

my next appointment is on tuesday morning to get that tooth pulled. not thrilled ..in fact...im nervous as hell ...but like i keep saying...it has to get done. arghhh.

on another note...I have to say how proud i am of my kiddo. i had mentioned before about us wanting her to try air cadets when she turns twelve. well....last night she went to one of their weekly meetings to see how she would like it (she is also going to go next week also). when we left her there we were both a little worried she wouldnt want to participate or not talk with people. we were so happy to see her smiling and happy when we got there to pick her up. some of the other girls were making it a point to say bye to her and even one of the boys came up to her and gave her a high five. she said she had a great time and even made some new friends (that is such an achievement for her since she normally doesnt open up to others). she says she really liked it and wants to join just after this first week. but we want her to go to 2 more meetings to really see how it is only because each week during the month is a little different. last night was mostly about how to care for your uniform (which she wont have until we sign her up), how to iron, polishing your shoes, and how your hair should be worn. the is happy that she wont have to pull it back in a bun since her hair is short and about the collar. next week from what i know they are having regular cadet class time which range from classes on airplane engines, weather, drill, being a good citizen, etc. if she chooses she can also learn an instrument there and be in the band they have for marching. i was very pleased with what i saw last night and hope this is something that will help her grow in confidence and make some friends. next week we will get the paper work to fill out and with one more meeting after that she will have her uniform for her first official meeting three days after her birthday.

so with both of those things going on in my head my thoughts go from being very proud of kiddo to full of anxiety over my teeth problems. oh the joys of ups and downs.

fun fact about me: I prefer fountain soda/pop over bottle or can.

have a good rest of your day.....hugs

edit.....i told hubby i did a post that was about a little bit of everything. he asked if put how handsome he was in my blog. i laughed and told her "no, wasnt talking about him". he replied that i had just told him i wrote a post that was a little bit about EVERYTHING and i should edit my post. so there you go sweetie....i mentioned how sexy and handsome you are. oh and did i mention how funny you are?.....FUNNY LOOKING!!! bwahahahahahaaaaaaaaa :p~~

yep thats a real skull shack....

2007-02-19T11:09:00.001-04:00

Double Eagle Trading Co.
Originally uploaded by caligirlpei.

this skull shack is in Arizons just south of the grand canyon. this picture was taken on our vacation back in 2005 (see the date?)
it has nothing to do with my post...but just felt like posting it cuz im thinking about my mouth which is in my skull.

Im one of those people who worry to much about every little thing. I have made yet another dentist appointment for this coming wednesday after cancelling out last tuesday cuz i chickened out. when i made this new appointment i didnt have my work schedule for this week and now im worried i should have waited to see what it was. my appointment wednesday is first thing in the morning (fine) but i know i have a few things that HAVE to get done and arent going to be fun. but after finding out i work thursday im now starting to chicken out of this appointment now since i know how my mouth and head gets after having any dental work done. i need a day after to recoup ....yeah i know...im a baby and im a not good with pain. so the struggle right now in my "skull" is stressing me out. do i still go to the appointment and just have him look at what needs to be done, take xrays and make a game plan? or do i cancel out again and reschedule for next week when i know i have a day after to recoup? *sigh*

watched: Flushed Away, Babel, Prestege this weekend...all very good movies that come out on dvd this tueday.

tv...omg....greys anatomy is so gooood! i also never miss ugly betty which leaves me wanting more everytime it ends and ghost whisperer. my top 3 tv shows that never get over looked.

nascar started this last week. WOW...what a great start to a season. the dayton 500 ....i so would have liked to see mark martin win it but the finish was spectacular!!!!! dale jarrett finished 22nd and managed to not get caught up in any of the accidents. next week the race is in california where my sister and her family are going to be attending as they always do. yes im jealous.

fun fact about me: i prefer the toilet paper to come over the top when on the roll. *cheesy smile*

hugs to you...have a great monday.

counting sheep doesnt work for me....

2007-02-15T11:07:00.000-04:00

not enough sleep for this girl is not a good thing. i got maybe 1-2 hours sleep last night due to the high winds we had here on the island. the weather network was calling for 10-15cm of snow turning into ice pillets/rain overnight and wind gusts up to 90-100km/hr. the snow didnt do half of what they said...but it was mostly freezing rain changing over to rain with lots and lots of wind. i couldnt sleep due to the wind howling outside. i dont know why i have such a hard time sleeping during any weather event that is loud. ...but i just couldnt sleep.
what snow we still have outside looks gross. lets just say it looks like we live on mars now. all the snow is a orangy brown color (our dirt is orange here due to the iron in it) and the cars are just covered in the same dirty residue....bleck!

school was only on a one hour delay today so the kids arent too happy....lol

im off to take a nap...something i havent done in a long time while they are at work and school.

have a great day and hugs to you.

HAPPY WEDNESDAY!!!

2007-02-14T09:44:00.000-04:00

Its just another day...nothing to see here....lol....honk as you drive by.

hugs and much love from me to you :)

lets get this week started.....

2007-02-12T11:39:00.000-04:00

i feel like my week started on saturday since i work both days this past weekend.

my whole body hurts after going back to work after being off for 6 weeks. not sure yet if my knees going to be able to do it or not...have to give it a few more weeks to decide what im going to do.

had one of the worst customers every yesterday afternoon 2 hours before my shift was over. i cant get over how entitled people think they are and think they can get there way by yelling at you cuz you are following company policy. he was a jerk and thank goodness i wasnt alone in the store at the time...i would have called the cops...but a regular male customer was in the store at the time and watched the guy leave. customers like this guy make me wonder why im in the customer service industry...i certainly dont have to take this crap for minimum wage.

doing nothing but laundry today...wohoo! fun day ahead of me...the life of a queen is never boring....lol

hugs to you.....and have a great week :)

what a weekend....

2007-02-11T09:14:00.000-04:00

yesterdays first day back to work after 6 weeks out was "ok". boy was i tired after my shift...my knee sure isnt used to being on it standing for 7 hours. overall i did pretty good and had no major problems...just had to remember everything and try to keep up with things.

round two is today...another long 7 hour shift. im sure my knee will love me tonight...lol.

i did have something great to look foward to when i got home (other then my family)...NASCAR started last night and i was ready for some "rednecks turning left and going really really fast!". i watched a couple hours of prerace stuff on SPEED network and had a great time watching. this week there are a few other races midweek and then the big race is on sunday at daytona. i will be home from work that day just after it starts so i dont think i will miss much. WOOHOO!!!

tonight is the Grammys. not sure how i feel about watching them this year. nothing really excites me about it but like all awards shows i still watch them if nothing else is on.

thank you to everyone who commented on my last post. i do sometimes feel im living a fairytale when it comes to love in my life right now and im very lucky to have someone that cares for me as much as he does.

have a great rest of your weekend....im off to work.
hugs

A little something that makes me smile.....

2007-02-08T09:36:00.000-04:00

Five years ago today....February 8th I came to PEI for the first time. Exactly 5 years ago at this very moment i was on a plane only 6 hours away from physically seeing the man that will turn out to be my prince charming.

**on a side note...this trip in a plane was only my second flight in my life. the first one was when i was 9 years old back in 1976. this flight was also only 5 months after 9/11 so that made for even more nervousness.

2:30pm AST (1:30est) I landed at the Charlottetown Airport and walked off the plane into a winter wonderland. I had never been in snow before and to my joy it was snowing when i came down the stairway off the plane. I was like a kid looking into the air in the marval of seeing white fluffy stuff coming from the sky. but then in an instant i was worried about falling on the slippery tarmak (sp?) that was covered with a great layer of snow.

As i got closer to the doors of the airport that kid like joy turned into nervousness again. is he going to like me when he sees me in person even though we spent many many hours on video cam talking to each other and many pictures exchanged...not like he hasnt ever seen me. I went to PEI to see my wonderful friend that had made me feel human again and someone that made me laugh every minute i talked to him. i had no intention of falling in love as hard as i did.

he was there waiting for me as i came out of the cold into the airport with two of his female friends that drove him out there. he thought i would be more comfy meeting him with others around and that they were female not guys with him. we hugged... which seemed never ending...got my luggage and started our way to his home.

on our drive home we sat in the back seat of his friends Rav4. i took his hand and held it...he was so nervous that his hand was shaking. i just held his hand and we all had a nice talk during the drive.

i spent 2 weeks here just hanging out and getting to know him. that was also our first valentines day together and he suprised me with roses (delivered to his place where i was while he was at work that day) and a wonderful dinner out.

so many details about my trip to see him but the importance of this post was how much February 8th means to me. this is the 5 year anniversary of a love for a friend that grew into so much more. the first day we touched with a hug and the holding of nervous hands.

i knew the day i was walking back onto the plane sobbing i had found someone that was meant for me. i cried quietly almost all the 11 hours i had on my flights. my heart was hurting that i had to leave this man behind and i would never see him again. but after a few months of talking we knew what was meant to be and i decide to make a life changing decision and move to Canada. but that would come after kiddo got out of school cuz i didnt want to interrupt her life at that moment just for my happiness....that would come at the end of june.

i had many people tell me i was crazy to do such a drastic thing but i also had so many more tell me they wish they could just drop everything and change their life. i needed to be happy and that change in my life was for me. it was selfish to some but not for me.....IT WAS FOR MY OWN HAPPINESS. and after seeing how this has effected my child....her happiness as well. It was the best thing in my life i have ever done.

he is my angel. he saved me and showed me what it was like again to be loved and how someone should really be treated. he is also the best thing that has happened for my (our) daughter, he is a great step dad to her and she adores him greatly.

I love you sweetie. 5 years of love started on this day.

This, That and maybe a little bit more.....

2007-02-06T09:45:00.000-04:00

Yesterday seemed like the longest day to me. after I dropped off hubby and kiddo where they had to be i went down to the waterfront, parked the car and watched a large cargo ship unload whatever it was onto trucks down below on the dock. that lasted about a hour until i realized i hadnt taken my knee pill yet and if i didnt get it in soon i would only be able to get 2 in not 3....so off i went back home to veg.

if you were wondering about or who i was mad at yesterday that made me feel like i wanted to commit myself to the crazy house it was kiddo. no details....lets just say she is pushing her "im almost a teenager" attitude a bit too far with me in the mornings...and im so not a morning person. hubby is actually the one helping me through all this. i feel like he is walking on eggshells though around me for fear im going to explode towards him (although i have snapped a few times at him but only out of frustration of whatelse is going on around me).

on top of all that...im still harboring that anger towards the ASSHOLE (the ex). i just cant seem to let it go and here its been 5 years now since me or my daughter has seen his ugly mug. anyway....thats part of my emotions.

my knee stuff still. and now for the past month i have been denying the pain i have been having in my mouth on the back bottom side of my mouth. its now i think getting to a point i cant ignore it anymore and it just terrifies me to have to go to the dentist. so that stress isnt helping me either.

going back to work saturday is stressing me out also....and thoughts of whether or not i really need this $200-$300 extra a month job is nagging me and i dont know what to do. its not like i work a lot....2-3 shifts a week...but still. i have to go back and see how my knee does and just go from there.

plus i have to at least stick it out until summertime. dont need us in the hole any farther then we are or the little summer trip we are planning isnt going to happen. that is going to be covered by our tax return for the most part but still have to have another thousand to cover it all. more about this another time.

i go back to the doctors in 3 weeks and i think im going to have to talk to him about my depression again and i really do think i have to get on something to help. the rollercoaster of emotions has been getting worse the past few months and the episodes seem to be staying longer. yay...more pills!!

oh...btw...the weather today is frigid... the last on the radio i heard it was -20c with a windchill of -35c. BURRRRRR! and no...they didnt cancel school either. the radio station was getting so many calls (like they control the school board) asking if they just didnt read it or people missed the closers. nope...school was a go today.

so off i took them to work and school.... i came back home instead of going out to the grocery store and freezing anymore than I already was and took a nice hot shower and some breakfast before popping onto here to bitch and whine...lol the store isnt going anywhere and we arent in any great need for anything specific at this moment.

oh i could go on about tv stuff and other celebrity gossip but then you would be reading another full page and i can ramble on endlessly especially when im all emotional and stuff. so im not.

but i will leave you with this little fun fact about me....

my favorite icecream is: rainbow sherbet

In need of....

2007-02-05T08:23:00.001-04:00

ANGER MANAGEMENT

It's been some week....

2007-02-02T09:32:00.000-04:00

- mood has been crappy...depressed, cranky, sad, angry, worried

- had a huge blowout with my ex over the phone weds. night over something he said to my child that made her cry (more like a sobbing cry) and now having her all him a jerk. he's still an ASS and wonders why im still so angry at him.

- hubby said that he doesnt care for the ex even more since he has made "his" daughter cry.

- that was the most yelling i have done in 4 years. we dont yell is this house like that. that man is toxic to me. that is one reason i dont answer the phone when it shows his number on the caller i.d. I cant stand the sound of his voice.

- have had a headache most of the week and got worse after wednesday night.

- slight sinus cold going on. so with that my two teeth that are bothering me a little bother a little more.

- been taking a tylenol #2 every night this week to help relive the slight discomfort of my mouth and to help me sleep.

- my knee is so-so.

- something the women will understand: my favorite bra...the underwire broke.

- i have been worried about kiddo and how she is handling all this crap with her "birth father". she even said that she wanted her step dad to adopt her....but that is something we want her to really understand first and when she is a bit older. we dont want that decision to be made out of anger.

- im worried about kiddo and how she is doing in school. since before xmas break we (us and the doctor) decided to change her meds. after changing the dosage now for the third time we think we might have the right one. will know in another week after the teachers have a full complete "normal" week of school.

-kiddo is home today. there is no school due to teacher stuff. we only have to go out and get the materials for a project that we want to get completed this weekend that is due next thursday.

- i go back to work next week. only two shifts which is great...neither of which are closing shifts. but...my only gripe is...im available during the day during the week and i get both weekend days....opening shifts....long all day shifts. im worried about going back and not remembering things since im the manager on duty during those shifts.

-i will say that im very lucky to have such a great husband that is there for me and deals with all my emotional baggage and is the best example of what a father should be to his step daughter.

*sigh* my head hurts so im off to read my daily blogs, play a couple games online, and maybe even some scrapbooking (which i have gotten back into). not much of a post...but its a post. my mood just sucks the past few days.

hugs to you and here to a great weekend!
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For those with kids you will understand....

2007-01-30T08:06:00.000-04:00

Why the f*ck is it always an argument? every little thing that is brought up is followed with "why blah blah blah blah?" and "I dont think blah blah blah!".

its been one of those mornings of just arguing back with every thing i say. after one comment all that had to be said was ... "thanks mom"...but i get two minutes of why i didnt do something or that it wasnt right.

today i have a raging headache and all i get is shit on in the morning. nice. so as i used to say when "I" was a kid....WHATEVER!

hope your day is starting off better then mine.
hugs

Oh No!...the transformation is really happening....

2007-01-26T12:10:00.000-04:00

When I was walking out of Walmart this morning pushing the shopping cart to my car I said something out loud to myself and was in shock i actually said it without even thinking. the weather this morning was -26c and I had made sure I had my jacket zipped up, gloves on and even my hat on.

what was it I said? "It's right some cold out here." followed by a loud shiver...then shudder. I cant believe i actually said that! why suprised? well....when i moved here i had never heard someone say anything was "right some". not sure if its a Canadian thing but it sure is an "Island" thing here.

there are lots of slang sayings here. It took me over 4 years now to call soda "pop"...but i cringe when i do only feeling like i have to say it this way or nobody will know what im talking about. I have to remember to say washroom...not restroom...again...seems like i confuse people when i say that. oh...and dont get me started on the lunch being called dinner and dinner being called supper. *eyeroll*

i dont know how to explain it...the whole thing about conforming to the accent around here or any other place i might live. the only time im conscious of saying these slang terms is when im being silly and usually only around hubby. but this morning...it wasnt a joke and i wasnt being silly....it just came flying out of my mouth. lol

on that note...after this mornings little blurb that come out of my mouth I think my blood is a redder shade of red and im becoming more of a Canadian with everyday that passes. YAY ME!

note: wow...did what i just write make any sense at all? what a ramble.

hugs....

Are you on the list?....

2007-01-23T11:14:00.000-04:00

HEROES IS BACK!!!! im so excited that i have something else to look forward to watching on tv.

my absolute favorite Hero is Hiro Nakamura. i cant explain why other then he is accepting of his special power and love to hear him speak japanese. plus he is adorable! see.....how cute is he? i have always had a thing for japanese men since i was school age.

my question about the show right now that has me wondering is: Is Mr. Bennett and the Haitian guy good or bad. i totally cant decide on this one. im leaning towards Mr Bennett on being bad but the haitian guy helping him is really good and is there to keep things from getting out of hand. *shrugs* im so confused...lol

we were so excited after the show that we both sat there letting out sighs as if we had just had the best sex ever and didnt want it to end. WHAT A GREAT SHOW!! thank you NBC for having this show in your line up. just dont F&ck it up like ABC did to Lost.

Monday Mutterings....

2007-01-22T11:57:00.000-04:00

Unconscious Mutterings.....

I say....and you think...?

Audition :: sing

Urgent :: hurry

Lunch :: time

Adult :: movies

Mug :: shot

Awful :: shamefull

Comics :: funny

Damage :: roof

Kicks :: hurt

Experience :: older

Have a great monday. have you muttered today?
hugs

oh my aching back!

2007-01-21T17:03:00.001-04:00

oh my aching back!
Originally uploaded by caligirlpei.

after doing absolutely nothing yesterday I decided i had to get outside and shovel out the snow drift infront of our front door and around the car. other then that we have been inside doing nothing much but watching tv and eating. storm started friday afternoon and then really dug in around midnight going until midmorning saturday. first we had a little bit of snow followed by lots of rain...so much rain it took away 90% of the snow we had and then by morning we were snowy white again with a nice layer of ice below that. thats one of the main reasons i didnt want to leave the house saturday and the second was that we really had no reason to go out anyway.

other then that...my mood is blah and my knee is so-so....things could be worse so im not going to complain.

hope you had a good weekend. big hugs to you....

update....

2007-01-19T14:14:00.000-04:00

Schools let out 1 hour early today due to weather conditions in our area. the roads are a slushy mess and its changing over to rain right now. bleck!

NO snow day today.....

2007-01-19T07:59:00.000-04:00

weather changes here so fast...this is the new report this morning......
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Rainfall warning for:Prince County
NEAR 30 MILLIMETRES OF RAIN FORECAST FOR THIS AFTERNOON AND TONIGHT. THIS IS A WARNING THAT SIGNIFICANT RAINFALL IS EXPECTED OR OCCURRING IN THESE REGIONS. MONITOR WEATHER CONDITIONS..LISTEN FOR UPDATED STATEMENTS.
A LOW PRESSURE SYSTEM IS FORECAST TO INTENSIFY RAPIDLY AS IT MOVES UP THE BAY OF FUNDY AND THEN OVER SOUTHERN NEW BRUNSWICK TODAY CONTINUING TO MOVE TO THE NORTHEAST OVERNIGHT. PRECIPITATION WILL START AS SNOW THEN WILL CHANGE TO RAIN LATER THIS AFTERNOON. SNOWFALL AMOUNTS OF 5 TO 10 CENTIMETRES FOLLOWED BY 30 MILLIMETRES OF RAIN IS EXPECTED. AS WELL WINDS GUSTING UP TO A 90 KM/H ARE FORECAST TONIGHT AND SATURDAY MORNING.PLEASE REFER TO THE LATEST PUBLIC FORECASTS FOR FURTHER DETAILS.
ISSUED BY ENVIRONMENT CANADAAT 4:31 AM AST FRIDAY 19 JANUARY 2007

Wind warning for:Prince County
WINDS GUSTING TO 90 KM/H FORECAST FOR TONIGHT AND SATURDAY. THIS IS A WARNING THAT POTENTIALLY DAMAGING WINDS ARE EXPECTED OR OCCURRING IN THESE REGIONS. MONITOR WEATHER CONDITIONS..LISTEN FOR UPDATED STATEMENTS.
A LOW PRESSURE SYSTEM IS FORECAST TO INTENSIFY RAPIDLY AS IT MOVES UP THE BAY OF FUNDY AND THEN OVER SOUTHERN NEW BRUNSWICK TODAY CONTINUING TO MOVE TO THE NORTHEAST OVERNIGHT. PRECIPITATION WILL START AS SNOW THEN WILL CHANGE TO RAIN LATER THIS AFTERNOON. SNOWFALL AMOUNTS OF 5 TO 10 CENTIMETRES FOLLOWED BY 30 MILLIMETRES OF RAIN IS EXPECTED. AS WELL WINDS GUSTING UP TO A 90 KM/H ARE FORECAST TONIGHT AND SATURDAY MORNING.PLEASE REFER TO THE LATEST PUBLIC FORECASTS FOR FURTHER DETAILS.
ISSUED BY ENVIRONMENT CANADAAT 4:31 AM AST FRIDAY 19 JANUARY 2007
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kiddo was so not happy with mother nature. i do have to listen to the radio later if the weather seems really nasty out...they might let them go early.

Happy Friday!! hugs to you

WOW...when Winter decides to show up....it shows up!...

2007-01-18T12:30:00.000-04:00

this is what was in the news this morning for us after yesterdays windchill warnings and no school. im pretty sure there will be no school tomorrow. (there is school today)

Winter storm watch for:Prince County
THIS IS AN ALERT TO THE POTENTIAL DEVELOPMENT OF HAZARDOUS WINTER WEATHER CONDITIONS IN THESE REGIONS. MONITOR WEATHER CONDITIONS..LISTEN FOR UPDATED STATEMENTS.

A LOW PRESSURE SYSTEM EXPECTED TO DEVELOP SOUTH OF LONG ISLAND LATER TODAY WILL APPROACH THE REGION OVERNIGHT. SNOW AHEAD OF THIS SYSTEM WILL DEVELOP FRIDAY MORNING ACROSS PRINCE EDWARD ISLAND AND IS EXPECTED TO CHANGE TO RAIN LATER IN THE DAY. SNOWFALL AMOUNTS OF 10 TO 15 CENTIMETRES ARE LIKELY ON FRIDAY BEFORE THE CHANGEOVER TO RAIN.

PLEASE REFER TO THE LATEST PUBLIC FORECASTS FOR FURTHER DETAILS.
ISSUED BY ENVIRONMENT CANADA AT 10:12 AM AST THURSDAY 18 JANUARY 2007

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ever have one of those moments when you forget if you took your daily pills? im having one of those this morning/afternoon. cant remember if i took my knee pill or not and i have a headache from the cold wind outside and sinuses buggin me....grrr. since im not sure if i did take my pill i have to wait until my next pill time to take one....what a pain in the butt.

we shall see if its a snow day tomorrow when we wake up and listen to the radio at 7am. kiddo has her hopes high and was upset we didnt have one today also...lol she's so lucky to even have a chance at snow days....when i was a kid living in so. california there isnt such thing as a snow day unless you live up in the mountains.

have a good day today...hugs